hah.

oo na..kadramahan na kung kadramahan ang magiging tingin niyo sa blog na to... but this isn't a rant post or a drama post or a sad post.. kasi wala naman dapat ika-sad... diba ikai?

haha..ganito un:

thursday, january 10, 2008
di sumabay sa akin si tumalad, so i had time to think about what i hate thinking about... the future... bwahaha... rewinding to february 2007, i applied for nmat (something i vowed i wouldn't take seriously kasi ayoko matulad kay ate...bwahaha...sorry ate). i took the test, got my results and suddenly got hyped about going to med school... so ayan, cge na, nagreminisce na ang tawag sa ginawa ko nung thursday night.. then it struck me that i don't really want to see something that would keep my hopes high. explanation: open house ng ateneo med school nung saturday na un (kahapon) and i was planning to go since lynyrd has been inviting me since last year... so there, i texted him, that i wouldn't be going to the open house nalang. i mean, isn't it harder to accept something that isn't going to happen if you keep going to/doing stuff that is directly associated to it.

friday, january 11, 2008
i stayed home, not wanting to waste another day with a boring review class. then, ikai texted me about what time we were to meet up the next day for ateneo. i explained that i wasn't going and to ask lynyrd or ken or miguel about it.. then we started chatting about this wanting to go to med school thing that probably at the back of our minds, we have half convinced ourselves that it will be an impossible mission. then lynyrd texted at sinabi ang "wag mong isipin na hindi ka makakapagmed"...haha... hayyyyy...

saturday, january 12, 2008
open house day! i didn't go...haha...i started wondering what happened to that open house. then hours later, i received a text from lynyrd that he changed his mind about asmph...

sunday, january 13, 2008
from the moment i woke up, well, i started thinking about med again... haha... o diba.. adik.. then miguel asked me kung magaapply pa ba ako... hmmm..magaapply pa ba ako? haha... ayan na ang masaklap na tanong.. i'll probably give it one last shot...haha... sounds familiar? sinabi ko na yan e... sinabi ko na na ust lang ang aapplyan ko, pag hindi naging ok, e di ok... iaccept.. but then, here i am...nagpapakapathetic na nageemail sa admissions ng mga schools na willing magbigay ng scholarship.. AS IF!haha...

oh well, ito lang masasabi ko:

1. i can't talk to it with my parents without anything concrete that would actually make them CONSIDER (consider lang ha... hindi pa allow yan...haha) my situation.
   
2. kahit sabihin mong iaaccept mo, mahirap paniwalaan na ganun nalang... or in better words, the truth hurts...haha... it'll be so hard to believe that after all those applications with my own money, it'll turn out that way... am i making any sense?
3. i told myself, i wouldn't do/dwell on med as much as my sister.... hindi nga...more pa ata... siya nga lang, vocal siya...haha...let's see the difference
   
4. pag hindi ako naging doctor, mas magiging mayaman ako sa mga doctor/med students na yan! haha... 4 years kayo nagaaral, ako 4 years na nagiipon nun (bitter!)
   
5. one day, whatever happens to me, well, wala naman na ako magagawa kung un ung mangyari sa akin diba?

new year, new ways... go with the flow lang ba dapat? ah ewan... basta magaaral nalang muna ako sa SA, marketing at rizal...dahil nag compute ako ng current over-all average ko... and i'm not happy... i'm like 0.2 above my average limit... errrr... nooooooo

true self daw

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

xoxo

"It's often said that no matter the truth, people see what they want to see. Some people might take a step back and find out they were looking at the same big picture, all along. Some people might see that their lies have almost caught up to them. Some people may see what was there all along. And then there are those other people, the ones who run as far as they can so they don't have to look at themselves."

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be?"

haha... just to quote a few of the shows i have watched this past weekend...

so today's the last day of christmas... that ended well... next season is graduating time! aren't you excited?!? i am...haha... i just can't wait for it to be april 2 already...

we are going to the world beyond... beyond quizzes and exams, teachers and grades... we are going through the unanticipated...

haha... isn't exciting to know what we will become after graduation.. may magmmed, may magccall center, may mag nnursing, graduate school, boards, PDEA officer, BFAD officer, pharmacist sa drugstore, sa hospital, may magnnight duty, may magaabroad, may magiging loyal sa pilipinas at magsstay dito, may magaasawa at magkakaanak, may magiging/magsstay na single, may magtatago sa mga kaklase at may magpaparamdam parati, may magmmanufacture ng gamot, may magiinspect ng gamot, may magtturo, may magpapaturo, may magiging bum, may magiging masipag, may yayaman, and sana walang hihirap... may magmamayari ng sariling manufacturing company, drugstore or hospital!

un kung wala ka pang napipili sa kahit alin dyan, well, starting choosing.. .dahil malapit na yan...

which reminds me, gusto ko pumasa ng board pero katamad pumasok sa review...haha... isn't there a way to make the review sessions a little -- livelier? haha...just a thought