entry no.4: pcol pcol pcol

Desktop countdown says: 16 days 1 hour 12 mins and 24 secs

Rise and shine! It's a saturday morning... an unusual saturday morning... it is way too early to get out of bed, look for something to eat and start studying for pharmacology...

But i had to because finishing at least 3/4 of the notes yesterday was pretty unsuccessful... It is taking longer than i estimated.

I'm not even halfway through... So today I have to make up for the times i literally slacked yesterday.

funny thing happened, the moment i woke up, i thought--- what was the Tx for excessive hyperthermia--- dantrolene... what was the drug that caused hyperthermia--- stared at the ceiling

after a few minutes, i gave up, looked at my notes and deduced that i my study yesterday was not enough.... so today, i'll probably isolate myself from the temptations and stay in another room...

arrrgggg... its just so hard to concentrate when your mind isn't taking in the information anymore...i just end up getting frustrated.

yes, but tomorrow will be the real test...the post it on our pc says: arrival 5:45 am... my mom basically bought scarves and jackets when it is so freaking hot here in the philippines... hahahaha.... she's way too excited for my sister's work...

that's all for now...btw, it's succinylcholine

xoxo,
kL

entry no.3: bad dreams

my desktop countdown says: 16 days, 19 hours 59 mins and 43 seconds till the pharmacy board exam

so bad dreams... i don't know why i'm having bad dreams lately...

since i started reviewing seriously (which was like 3 days ago) i had this rule that i have to sleep on or before 10pm... but that didn't work too well, so i just made this deadline that by 10 pm, i have to stop working and start putting myself to sleep, so i would get at least 8 hours of rest.

that isn't working too well either... i slept at about 10pm last night, finishing of real early... but then around 2am i had this bad dream, i can't really remember what it was, but when i woke up it was as if it still happening...

i fell asleep again and around 4am, i had this bad dream again. I was on an island with my family and friends. we settled in the hotel, then I decided to stroll around.. I saw this huge lake with a hanging bridge on it. I crossed the bridge saw mountain and decided to climb it... Then i saw my friend (i can't remember who he was) who was sitting on the ground looking at a huge house that popped out out of nowhere. I sat beside him, and was pretty sure the words he said were "it was hard, but i came through, and now i'm enjoying it.." and i can remember asking him what was it he enjoyed... And then he started telling a story about the house... it was a creepy story that even though i was asleep, i could feel my alpha-2 receptors activating (layman's terms: goosebumps)... i walked some more until it was really dark.. then someone called my name..but i realized i was lost in the woods... and the mountain started to crack, and the tip of a volcano was showing up...

i ran until i saw the hanging bridge which was now over a very very large pool... i could feel the earth moving... there was an earthquake! and the chances of the bridge falling apart were really high... so crossing the bridge, i dashed to safe ground. when i arrived a jacuzzi popped out. but i ran straight to the hotel. and the people who welcomed me back were smiling...actually they were smirking... and started chanting "you survived... you survived"

i barely caught my breath when someone asked me, "where's your mom and sister?" puzzled, i looked back at the pool and saw them crossing the bridge which is about to collapse... and, it did collapse...while they were in it... but the pool was cracking into half... and the bridge WAS in the middle...do the math, they were heading straight to the big gap...

shocked, i went near the pool...when my sister and mom emerged and said, "why's your face like that? you like tired, where have you been?"

arrrrgggghhhh....

hate hate hate bad dreams... i ended up having less sleep than i originally planned...

well, that's all for now

xoxo,
kL

entry no.2

my desktop countdown says: 17 days 20 hours 6 mins and 44 secs....

and i'm itching to watch another episode of criminal minds... but no... i can't...

i already overslept this morning, i can't afford to waste another hour on watching....haha

i think i already figured out when i get these anxiety attacks... it's when i'm not holding either my notes or my pacop... i can feel that i'm wasting my time, but sometimes my brain reaches saturation point and starts rejecting information... and that's when i result to singing cheesy songs like: a whole new world or picture of you by boyzone (mr bean's movie's theme song)

gaaahhhhh

today biochem... tomorrow pharmacology... that will go on until monday... i am actually excited to study pharmacology because now i'm actually ready to take in the information...

but before my pharmacology streak ends, my mom's arriving from thailand... and that only means one thing! actually 2 things... it's the day of pasalubongs (i wish i wish i wish...hahaha) and.....*cue the drumroll... the day the memory stick of the camera/psp is coming... my sister decided to limit the memory to that until my boards are over...hahahahaha... alam mo naman ako, walang control pag dating sa mga bagay na ineenjoy ko...hahhahaha...

ok enough...

i still have to study 1 and a half pacop..

so til tomorrow...

ciao

i thank you *bow