i think i'm a blair and i just don't care

"cold cold cold" -nikki

"cold-hearted bitch!"-kL

"blair!"-nikki

"i don't care!" -me

hahahaha...

whatever nikki, magonline ka na kasi! pinipigilan pa oh
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dapat pala irecord na, bernice and i met up yesterday at megamall to exchange our christmas gifts... ayun lang, sa dami ng kwento, we totally forgot to take a picture... ohwell, nagmamadali na rin kami kasi parehas kaming 2pm ang duty...hahaha... love love the scrapbook and lipstick! hahahaha... mature up na daw kami... doy!

mahiwagang pirma ni doc Q

if you aren't a graduate of ust- bs pharmacy, you won't get the first half of this blog..

so 10am-10pm duty.. same same only longer hours. when an OPD patient came, and out of habit i checked out the doctor's signature first. looks familiar... check his name, peter quilala, sounds familiar, looked at his s2 number, i know this number! kidding, hahahahah...it ended with seeing pfq's name and there i thought it would be easy. it's a long story so to make it short keywords nalang

morphine 5mg tab-10mg tab
countersign
angry dr. dizon for my wrong dialing
didn't find pfq
found doc mina to have a signature specimen

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i feel so numb na... if you know the manhid me before i'm worse this way. i have lost the will to care--about anything and everything.. in fact i'm bothered that i am not bothered at all. it's just blank..everything's blank and a no brainer for me these days. it's hard to tell what i'm feeling because i don't feel a damn thing.. weird yet familiar. i forgot how it's like to feel excited/nostalgic/nervous/mad/irritated. oh well, probably the reason why you haven't seen much of me lately. or know much of me..huh? nonsense. hahaha...probably not totally true because of composing blogs, but technically i'm talking/writing to myself by making one.. again with the nonsense.. ohwell bye! (bye me? bye who?)

dec 31, 2008- jan1, 2009: GO ON GIRL (the new year blog straight from the pharmacy)

It’s hard to believe that it has been months ago since I have been listening to Go On Girl (Ne-Yo) with Ken sharing the green earphones of my ipaQ while playing poker (or was it tong-its) with Miguel and Lynyrd. Yeah, it has been that long. Now, they’re on the road to prepping themselves to becoming doctors, while I have just recently chosen a totally different path. Things change, people change, and we just have to grow up and adapt.

It has been the quite eventful year. Graduating-becoming a registered pharmacist (technically not true)- my first minimum paying job. Not to mention having one of the most heart-wrenching holidays in so many years. Watching people die (technically not true too) on my watch, seeing the relatives try to get a grip of their emotions on Christmas day/new year’s eve (literally). But then again how many patients had left the walls of this hospital feeling better? And even if we don’t have direct interaction with them, I’d like to think that I have a part in making them better.

Broken’s now playing, and I’m checking for the pyrotechnique effects in the sky- or at least scanning for stars. Stars we can wish upon for a better us this coming year. Stars that can make us move on with our past lives, leaving them to be the better memories and start making new ones. Stars you can count your blessings as well as your tragedies. Stars you can count your friends and the people who have been not so kind to you too… but the sky is spotless.

Now, I’m stuck in this now familiar place listening to RX’s year-end countdown. I’d like to think that just like how that there will be a totally different countdown next year, we will have a new story to write. And to that- cheers!