scratch

ok scratch that

di pala ako masaya...

hahahahaha

hay

want to cry all day...

waahhhh

cry baby =(

lethally lethargic

yeah yeah...that title doesn't make any sense

but i'm boring not only my eyes but my brains out

once again (everybody, say it with me) SCATTERED BRAIN

scattered brain, booyah!

i talked to my high school friend na akala ko bum siya..turns out, may trabaho na siya 3 weeks ago... i miss pao..and the rest of st scho people...gaahhh, pag kami naguusap, naku walang tigil at walang kwenta, but all the same, nakakamiss siya sobra... so pao, since your birthday's coming soon, LIBRE...all together-- LIBRE!!hahaha

i'm ok na, thanks for not asking, bwahahaha...but i just needed an explosion to occur to you know let go of the ugly ugly feeling

when i was in grade 3, when a full tank of an Accord only cost P450, when we had money and gas to burn, my sister and i stayed at my gramps place... for the whole summer, then my parents would just visit us every week... to-- come to think of it, the didn't have an actual purpose of visiting us... i'm thinking of having that kind of haitus again, after i've finished with my oath taking and PPhA lakads. well here are a couple reasons why:

1. i can't really think here. well not with my mom constantly asking me what do i want to do. sabi ko nga kay pao, the more you think about it, the less thinking you get done, we were talking about her designs then, but same principle applies here
2. i don't really like going online anymore, or at least, i'm trying not to because of --- b,c,d help me out with a reason?--- let's just put it in "unexplainable reasons"..but come to think baka magpakabit si lolo ng net just because i'm going to stay there.. nooooo, exactly the reason why i'm leaving. but my gramps has this thing of providing everything you WANT... not necessarily need. and how do you say no to your adorable lolo diba?
   
3. hermit hermit hermit... i've always said na magpapakahermit ako after ng boards... something about being a hermit makes me find peace within myself... cheesy yet satisfyingly true
4. see, right now, the "gag order" my mom's violating it..arrggg... i hate it. i hate it.
   

bye

turns out

turns out


i won't be a registered pharmacist just yet.. turns out i have to be 21 to register... but still my mom wants me to work right away... well, magpamigay na raw ako ng resume ko, doesn't matter daw na di pa ako registered, i'll just have to show the newspaper with my name on it

but i don't want to work... yet...

i'm still hoping for a miracle.. a divine intervention.. just yet... i don't think they think i want med as much as my sister does.

my tita from the states told my mom that we have to be practical, don't study here, study there nalang... paano naman kasi ang idea ng mom ko is to do my residency there... if ever... a big fat IF EVER...

hay, yeah yeah be practical...their idea of being practical is take nursing...naman ahhh... hay, another attempt to make me sniff for the states... another attempt failed. the idea of studying nursing isn't exactly enticing. if the idea didn't attract me 4 years ago, it won't now.

what to do.. of course in the end it's not my say.

we had this deal of not talking about the future for one month... we actually called it "gag order"... OPERATION GAG ORDER... but they can't stop thinking about it...

bwahahaha

just thinking out loud

payment na kasi ng oathtaking tickets bukas and just found out that I can't register just yet..too bad, have to wait for a year and one month

tata for now

xoxo,
kL