what is the deal with friendster? why are we so hung up with it? why doo we seek more testimonials when we already have some.. why do we ask people to write us some more testimonials when we know what they say is what you want to hear? do we just have that much time in our hands? i mean come on... why do we look at our profiles everyday, when we can just look at our mirrors and look at ourselves or just reflect on our attitudes? i mean really... we look at our respective accounts more than anyone looks... why do people say back off when they just want everyone to see their profiles? why can't they just keep it to themselves? why do people have 500 ++ friends and then make a new one with the same peole inside it? what's the deal with that... come on... no one in this world knows 2500 (500 * 5 accounts--> doing some math here) people or if they knew 2500 people, they wouldn't be people real close to you... so where is this going?

sorry, i'm just frustrated coz my account's whacked and i can't upload this real great picture of mine{<-- see this? this is me being egotistical... and that's what friendster's done to me!! bwahahaha (my never-ending wicked [witch] laugh)}

a whole lot more

it was my first time to watch an episode of pinoy big brother teen edition a while ago... and dang the mikki is a real drama queen... and... whatever...

it took me 5 days to download a torrent i finished in one afternoon... if i only knew... oh well... at least im satisfied... and now i'm off to download another set....

grown up stuff...

yep loreen, nakakapagblog pa ako...haha...

anyway, this morning i did some grownup stuff.... haha.... my mom's sick so i had to file her SSS, which is something i mustn't be a member of till i'm 20 and mustn't be doing till i'm 50 (when i file for sick, disability, blah blah)... so anyway, we went back and forth coz we came early, realizing that we didn't have the sss id, we went home, got the id, ran back to the place and then, they said that you can't file it unless she's here.... and now they say.... hmmm..... so anyway, we just passed by mercury to buy my mom's meds.... the PA (pharmacist assistant) didn't know that a drug Triapin existed... lucky my seatmate was kind enough... to.... support me that THERE IS A DRUG CALLED TRIAPIN.... hehe... I remember seeing that in the rx section a year ago... which reminded my that a year ago, i had my first internship...hmmmm....hmmmmm.... no comment... hehe...

i learned how to use torrents yesterday.... haha.... now i have a list of the seasons of the shows i want to download...haha.... i have the power!!!! but maaaaaaaaaan is it taking forever...

from loreen

9 lasts.
1. cigarette: haha
2. beverage: water
3. kiss: haha too...
4. hug: with my pillow
5. movie seen: in the tv? the forgotten...
6. cd played: mulan... tagal na no?
7. song listened to: after glow by inxs
8. bubble bath: was in Ceasar's Palace
9. time you cried: a long long time.. probably grade school...

8 have you evers
1. dated one of your best friends: nope
2. skinny dipped: ano un? sorry... innocent..
3. kissed somebody and regretted it: not yet...
4. fallen in love: Yep... with this jaguar car i saw in the net... materialistic no?
5. lost someone you loved: nah..
6. been depressed: of course
7. been drunk and threw up: nope... believe it or not, i have a high tolerance with alcohol
8. run away: no

7 states you've been to.
1. California.. summer '04
2. Nevada.. does las vegas count? summer '04 din...grad gift... haha..
3. Colorado... not yet
4. Florida...dreaming... disneyland ... the real one...
5. Arizona.. nope
6. Hawaii... hmmm... wishing...but if it's this hot, never mind
7. Michigan... nuh

6 things you've done today.
1. texted the vietnamese translation of hi im.... from the country of vietnam... something like that... weird no...
2. opened our vault
3. feed my mom
4. walked my mom (starting to sound like a dog) and i bathed her too...
5. take pictures of my cats
6. checked the available drugs in our house

5 favorite things in no order.
1. my pc, mp3, ipaq (not mine)
2. my earphoneS!! they're more important than my mp3...
3. my parker with my name engraved in it...
4. my boxes of memories and letters... yup! im that kind of person...
5. my pillow, bed, fridge, food... my house

4 people you can tell anything to.
1. me
2.myself
3. I
4. another synonym for me... can't be too sure...

3 wishes.
1. sleep soundly... i'll have yp hit on the sedatives again... addict!
2. graduate... and have a lsuccessful, smooth life after graduation
3. clean my room..

2 things you want to be
1. diplomat
2. the best i can be... yuck drama!

1 thing you regret.
1. being the way i am now in the first half of my highschool so i could have enjoyed it...

cycle of life, circle of life, paying back, paying off and the randomness of thoughts

yesterday, i wrote a real long post... it got erased coz my internet connection sucked..

today, my internet connection still sucks...

i kinda missed my pc so instead of using the laptop... i'm frying myself in the summer heat to get this post published....coz for me, the following things happens only once in a lifetime.... i might forget..

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two mondays ago, i tested my stamina.... haha... we did our thesis... correction... we re-did our thesis... turned out what we worked on the saturday before that monday was total crap... as in basura.... at binasura talaga namin... we started our thesis all over again...

started at 8am.... dinaig ni shoti si tumalad kasi saktong 8 siya dumating... si tumalad, nasa tabi lang 9 na nakarating... dianne and jc followed... akala namin hindi dadating si dianne, but we figured since she left her phone in my room the saturday before, she'd be pressured to come. anyway, all of us started retallying our data... everything was cool... till after noon came.... after tallying, shoti and I grilled our brain cells to think of what to put in our discussion... the rest... well the just started goofing and singing around... we thought we'd finish the thesis by 6pm so they don't need to sleepover... then when we tested it in the chi square which gave us a result we didn't want to project... so we manipulated... till we got the digits right... then by 11pm we started doing our discussion.... we ended at 4 am... by 2:30 am we told the three that they could sleep... grabe, at natulog nga sila... so we ended at 4am...i slept at 5am...

and was awaken by tumalad's loud voice at 6:30am... palibhasa nakatulog siya...imagine kung gaano kasakit ng ulo ko nun... anyway... we realized some more errors on our thesis, so we edited it again...by 8am, jc and tumalad left the house to ready... and dianne, shoti, and I started readying up too... we dragged ourselves to ust by 11:30... buti nalang nagpalate kami.... coz the defense started at 1pm... imagine how long the others waited... haha... at oo, kahit tapos na ang finals, submitan ng grades at last day na ng encoding, oo meron parin kaming defense...

and our pagpupuyat paid off coz our thesis was clear... crystal clear... as in, gulat nga ako, naintindihan nila tumalad... haha...so pinahardbound na namin ung amin, pero pati sa paghhard binding, pahirapan.... so we left ust 6pm.... i reached santolan at 7:30... and of all the days that santolan could accumulate traffic, ung gabi na un pa... hay, buhay nga naman...
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if you thought i got sleep after our thesis, well, wrong! the next day was my sis' graduation... and her call time? 7:00 am.. in PICC, so we had to wake up at 4:00 am...

it went well, except that dianne texted me "me kulang sa thesis natin"...so i had to call up some people to make sure that our thesis be passed... oo, naubos ang cellphone load ko dahil dun... that and the ceremony was bo-ring...so i texted lots of people to un-bore myself... including my sister... imagine, 350 students be called twice.... aaarrrrgggg.... bat di nalang pinagsabay...

in the afternoon, we had pizza and pasta... the day, well, it ended with us preparing for our departure for the hospital the next day... sam asked me to edit her friendster layout,i couldn't... ayaw ko nang tumingin sa computer... after the thesis and everything...
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the first night in the hospital was still cool, coz it was still preop... my mom was still ok... but friday was different... her pain was unbearable for her... anyway, we didn't want to add her pain relievers coz the dose was already high....

the next day, madaldal parin si mum... kahit bawal siyang magsalita... di niya mapigilan... hehe... but we stayed up all night... oh, correction, i stayed up... since i'm the lightest sleeper among the four of us, i wake up every 20 minutes of an hour in different circumstances, for example checking if the iv is almost empty... haha.... and i wake up alternately my sis (who just literally knocked out) and dad... other than that, my mom's awake, so no scares... the next few days, my mum's real dependent... until now, i sleep for every 10 minutes of an hour to give her meds... take note.... yan lang ang sleep ko..haha... hay, magsshift na akong nursing... joke... but a good thing, i brought back the habit of listening to the radio at night (with the help of some newfound informatio about someone... haha... for me to know, and you to... well, find out)

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amazing....

seventeen and three-fourth years ago, my mom would stay up late to make sure i'm ok..
seventeen and three-fourth years later, it's my turn to stay up late for her...

seventeen and three-fourth years ago, my mom would would feed me..
seventeen and three-fourth years later, it's my turn to feed her...

seventeen and three-fourth years ago, my mom would help her as she walks her way around..
seventeen and three-fourth years later, it's my turn to walk her (pero nandadaya ako, natutulog ako sa beach chairs namin)...

seventeen and three-fourth years ago, my mom would say "hiphiphooray" after I finish my milo..
seventeen and three-fourth years later, it's my turn to say "hiphiphooray" after she finishes her food...

seventeen and three-fourth years ago, my mom would sing lullabyes to me..
seventeen and three-fourth years later, it's my turn to sing the modern version of rockabye baby...

that's the circle, cycle of life.... as my mom said, it's payback time.... and as say, "ang aga naman, masyado pa akong bata... haha.."
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i've decided not to get my clearance on monday... big deal no? as i told gra, first, i'd waste three hours, one hundred pesos and effort to get a piece of paper that is not essential to my life... second, i'm not that comfortable leaving my mom alone... third, i have really bad allergies... and when i say bad, i mean bad... fourth, i know my grades :(...last, I feel lazy... sabi ni jessa un un e... truthfully, ayoko munang bumalik ng uste... not in awhile..

yuck, laugh trip...haha...
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my cats were so cute awhile ago... matched by their color, pair by pair they slept at our front door.. then naconcious ung isa coz i was taking photos, he licked himself and then slept again... hay, gusto ko magbuhay pusa...
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at last, mapupublish na ito...haha....