year end survey

grabbed from: http://migsaquino.multiply.com

1. What did you do in 2007 that you'd never done before?

took the nmat?


2. Did you keep your new year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?

i can't remember making any resolutions last year


3. Did anyone close to you give birth?

mary loreneen ordona aquino


4. Did anyone close to you die?

ruby died, although we weren't close
tito alex died too, we weren't close either
my great grand mother died, if your a thousand miles away from her, its impossible to be close

5. What countries did you visit?

this year? zero


6. What would you like to have in 2008 that you lacked in 2007?

freedom


7. What date from 2007 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?

december 20, 2007... the day i decided enough is enough


8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?

thesis? although the whole thing wasn't really an acheivement... finishing it most probably was.
receiving my nmat score was something... it wasn't sky high but it was satisfying


9. What was your biggest failure?

the whole issue of friends thing


10. Did you suffer any illness or injury?

usual vertigo, asthma and allergy attacks and SLOTH


11. Whose behavior merited celebration?

my sister's


12. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?

a lot... actually a whole lot... an unexpected whole lot


13. Where did most of your money go?

food- not that obvious
bangles- for my sister
depression compensation- for me


14. What did you get really, really excited about?

thesis at first
nmat at first
commuting everyday AT FIRST
ending the year to start a new one


15. What was the best thing you bought?

my laptop!!!! haha.... yey me!


16. What song will always remind you of 2007?

"beautiful girls" by sean kingston


17. Compared to this time last year, are you:

a. happier or sadder? sadder

b. thinner or fatter? of course thinner

c. richer or poorer? because i was sadder and thinner, poorer (down with the whole negative vibe)



18. What do you wish you'd done more of?

enjoy my own independent life... cheesy yet true


19. What do you wish you'd done less of?

mag-ym...haha... although enjoy naman maging online


20. How will you be spending Christmas?

it already passed... one of the best christmas-es ever


22. Did you fall in love in 2007?

errrr... haha... next question please


23. How many one-night stands?

hell none!


24. What was your favorite TV program?

ugly betty, private practice, house, bones, grey's anatomy, psych, monk, and gossip girl (unbelievable i know! can't believe it myself either)


25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?

yes


26. What was the best book you read?

this year? i just finished water for elephants... haha... that's it for this year... it's a slow reading year
oh wait...HARRY POTTER AND THE DEATHLY HALLOWS!!! took me some time to get over the end of harry potter

27. What did you want and got?

laptop


28. What was your greatest musical discovery?

musicals... wicked!


30. What was your favorite film of this year?

enchanted.. hihihi


31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?

i was stuck here...it was raining... classes were suspended the next day(twas a sunday)... then uhhmmm... i was counting on a rejuvinating day(which i got)... wasn't in the mood because of a fiasco that never seems to end...


32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?

end the year? go to a new one?


33. What kept you sane?

nothing...haha... chocolates


34. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?

David Beckham


35. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2007?

uniform? ok fine pharma shirts


36. What political issue stirred you the most?

Manila Pen incident... phalarong pharmacia nun e...haha..panira


37. Who do you miss?

loreen...and my high school and grade school barkadas... kasi kahit malayo sila, andyan parin sila...


38. Who was the best new person you met?

winna...haha... ang joselle


39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2006:

di naalis ng bagong gupit ang mga problema mo...


40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:

Something has changed within me. Something is not the same. I'm through with playing by the rules/ Of someone else's game
Too late for second-guessing. Too late to go back to sleep. It's time to trust my instincts. Close my eyes: and leap!

It's time to try Defying gravity

supposed to be epiphany

december 8 can't end without me blogging

what with it supposed to be my day of epiphany

http://krazyinnarnia.multiply.com/journal/item/40/it_happens_all_on_one_date_December_7
http://krazyinnarnia.blogspot.com/2005_12_01_archive.html

light i tell you... i need light...

sort of...

december 7...

december 8....

this is completely shit/crap talk...

december 8...

i just read water for the elephants... and well it sucks...

at least this december 8, i was able to sleep well...

this year's dec 8/"epiphany" theme is sorry...

for the past months, sorry seemed to be my only theme

"im sorry"
"im sorry for you"
"im sorry for them"
"im sorry for myself"

shit drama...

i hate drama

maybe i'm wrong about this date

maybe its not my day ever... while my first 17 december 8s were always memorable and light, my past 2 were memorable and heavy?

so there... epiphany? where are you???

oh and its not what you think

defying gravity

I know...But I don't want it - NO - I can't want it
anymore...

Something has changed within me
Something is not the same

I changed my room's layout today... (besides changing my multiply layout).. I cleaned... general cleaning... well basically it's not my room but its where i'm staying right now... it was cluttered just like my mind was cluttered... but now, it's clearer... at least "my" room is... i added lots of boxes to categorize my stuff (OC alert) and of course my multi-slotted plastic container was once again brought out to organize my small stuff...

I'm through with playing by the rules
Of someone else's game

I watched enchanted yesterday... sa san lazaro lang... i was supposed to watch it with cathe sa gateway, but she had class until 5pm... actually, i had class until 5pm... but i decided to ditch it for the wonderful fairy tale movie.... the original plan was to watch it with my sister that afternoon but since she already had this bazaar shopping plan today, she was low on cash... so i asked cathe to watch it with me... too bad, di natuloy un... anyway after the movie, kath z and i met up with gladys and miguel then mcdo for a very very late lunch...syempre the same things happened...kwentuhan at lokohan...then when it was half past 4 we went home....

Too late for second-guessing
Too late to go back to sleep
It's time to trust my instincts
Close my eyes and leap

while i was in san lazaro, caeg texted me, kung gusto ko ba daw bilhin ung sandal thingy... well, i gave in... too soon... parang impulsive buying na text shopping na ewan.... when i went home, i wondered why i gave in too soon... di naman ako ganun, and even if you go shopping with me and actually see me buy a dress after 30 secs of staring at it, believe me, sa bahay palang alam ko na kung ano hahanapin ko, bibilhin ko and i have probably scouted on it over the internet...

It's time to try
Defying gravity
I think I'll try
Defying gravity
And you can't pull me down...

After dwelling on my impulsive buy, i started cleaning up my desktop of my soon-to-be reformatted laptop... i know its been affected with spyware and all that, but usually i would put cleaning the desktop off until the night before i plan to have it reformatted... at di lang ordinary burning... i filed them in neat stacks according to the appropriate category... there was alot thought to that



Can't I make you understand, you're having delusions of grandeur...?
I'm through accepting limits
'Cuz someone says they're so

after that i watched just my luck... chick flick grabe... i can't take the chick flickness but i'm not regretting watching it even though it made me sleep at about 3am...

Some things I cannot change
But 'till I try, I'll never know
Too long I've been afraid of

I started studying.. well at least making a reviewer for my toxicology lab quiz on tuesday... i don't usually study... and i don't know why i'm studying right now...

Losing love - I guess I have lost
Well, if that's love
It comes at much too high a cost

I'm trying to think... but i can't... blank ---- blank---- my blankness is deeper than you think it is... blank--- i don't know if i'm forcing my self not to think or i just can't think of anything

I'd sooner buy
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye

for those who actually know me, impulsiveness (whether it may be buying expensive sandals or watching movies i can download on the internet) - cleaning up (general cleaning to the smallest nooks and crannies) and studying---- is a very deadly combination... people know...people know SOMETHING IS WRONG... but i'm not sure they really know the real deal... i'm not even sure if i know the real deal... pero---- blank

tamad na ako magsabi... not because i don't want to say it... but because it's all in my head... i'm afraid pag sinabi ko mawawala na ulit sa utak ko...

I'm defying gravity
And you can't pull me down...

as expected this week was--- interesting... very very interesting... gracy although reminded me of porcupines... the oh-so-cute porcupines... but with all the "interesting-ness" of this week, i feel tired... tired... in a desert tired... there's a pool of water in front of me and i'm not sure if it's just a mirage... whatever...drama... bad trip... see now why i hate drama... it's so hard to deal with....

chasty asking me how was my week---- so far, INTANGIBLE...

come with me. Think of what we could do - together.

I'm Limited
Together we're unlimited

I talked to cathe last night though... and wow... that was a first... grabe, spilling of guts ang tawag dun... wala na atang mas gagaan pa sa ganun.... so imagine if we were talking to each other personally (i mean face to face)... i mean no holding back on the details...that was definitely a twist to my week... no maiba ung tone ng discussion... or better, maiba ung topic ng discussion...haha... so happy about that talk... lahat na ng meanness, unforgettableness (what is with -ness??) of moments, and syempre lahat ng spine tingling moment----ness and smile-widening---ness...haha =)

Together we'll be the greatest team
There's ever been, Glinda,
Dreams the way we planned 'em

to conclude this, while writing this, chasty was asking me what i was thinking.... blank---- in verbatim "alamo ung di mo maput into words pero constantly mong iniisip for no apparent reason"...i'm sorry this is not about love... she told me to chill and stop thinking...parang enjoy the moment lang... im an indecisive person and to that i have already resulted to asking advice from my sister... i need someone to slap me and tell me what i'm doing is wrong... syempre di lang un pinagusapan namin....haha....

i want to try alibiing, going with the flow, kahit ano... but i'm used to having a plan... and when i start with my plan i don't get sidetracked... i used to have a plan... now i'm just BLANK... pero, di pwedeng di magisip.... THOUGHT FREAK...


I'm through with playing by the rules
Of someone else's game

It's time to try
Defying gravity
I think I'll try
Defying gravity
And you can't pull me down...

react

Okay this is called 45 FIRST
REACTIONS... type what comes to your
mind first whenever you hear these 45
words. Don't think and don't go back
and change. Doesn't matter how random
just type it! Repost it for all of
your friends.


1. Beer
san mig

2. Food
steamed fish

3. Relationships
supposed to be logical

4. Your CRUSH
is an issue for everyone

5. Song
gotta go on my own way

6. Life
death

7. Color
green

8. Dream Job
diplomat

9. The President
girl

10. Yummy
strawberries covered in chocolate

11. Summer
beach

12. Movie
brady bunch

13. Halloween
pumpkin

14. Sex
safe

15. Religion
catholic

16. Myspace
friendster?

17. Fear
mice

18. Marriage
husband

19. Kleenex
ha-choo

20. SLIPPERS
wannabes

21. SHOES
choose

22. Asians
morena

23. Pizza
mozarella

24. One night stand
loser

25. Cell Phone
text

26. TV Show
house

27: Smoke
pot

28. News
cnn

29: COLLEGE
is ending

30: Highschool Life
has passed

31. Tattoo
fake ones

32. Stars
absent

33. Fitness Center
workout

34. Friends
priceless

35. LOVE
figure of speech

36. Hell
bad

37. Money
no more

38. Heartache
not me

39. Time
is my favorite intangible thing

40. Divorce
for the unhappy

41. Dogs
don't sweat

42. Undies
panties

43. Parents
there

44. Babies
ash wednesday

45. Ballpen
parker

commendable

so we had our defense yesterday, and according to the panelists, our thesis was well, commendable... according to google.com, commendable means "applaudable: worthy of high praise"... if that's not credible enough for you, merriam-webster states that commendable is:

1 : to entrust for care or preservation
2 : to recommend as worthy of confidence or notice
3 : to mention with approbation : praise

so yey me! yey us! three claps for me and my groupmates... YEY!!!

and at last the thesis days are over... and with that behind,we can all move on with our lives... well at least our second sem... which i know will be a breeze... especially because it will practically end by february, and then finally graduation... second sem, probably be easy peasy... and because of that, i opted to leave my dorm...

wow, after 3 schoolyears and 1 semester, i was finally leaving my dorm... the day itself was depressing enough with the dark clouds and the rainfall... the sunday before i exams, i cleaned up my room/ closet for the very last time... it was depressing to actually see myself leave that place... although within the duration of my stay, all you could hear were rants, well, it was really... surprisingly... sad...

no more bed to lie on at lunch time when i'm oh so sleepy... no more side trips to san lazaro when i feel bored.. no more ROOMMATES... who make me laugh when my nerves are jammed up.. who ask for your help, and for whose help you ask... no more... no more... no more late night talks with kath that amidst the tiring day, we could talk endlessly (or at least until 2 am only)..no more agatha, winna, joselle and kath... no more impromptu shopping of stupid things and things i actually need...

so... to cease the emotion while packing, i listened to my high school musical 2 soundtrack, cheesy i know... but nothing else in my playlist did not remind me of the dorm except for those darn cheesy and upbeat songs...

passing that, let's talk about graduation and what will happen after it... my future is so.. blurred... not until i pass my med app for UST's med program, then will my future finally build itself... gosh, swerte nila ken, miguel and lynyrd... buti pa sila, sure na... i have made my vow that if UST won't grant me a scholarship (grabe, ang feeling ko...) then i will finally stop...for good...that's when..

inday: all summed up

copied from

http://phenkgurl.multiply.com/journal/item/37/inday_looooooopppholes._nosebleed_series._for_popular_demands

http://drowingsolutionsph.multiply.com/journal/item/40/inday...?replies_read=36

http://rainwitched.multiply.com/journal/item/83

hahaha.
everyone is currently drooling for the ever famous INDAY.
laughtrip series...

*nosebleed*

Biodata ni Inday:

Name - Inocencia Binayubay

Nickname - Inday

Age - 18

Parents - Aling Seling at Mang Andoy

Siblings - Iying 13; Itoy 8; Ikling 5

Educational Background

College - La Salle 2nd year (scholar)

Highschool - P. Gomez Highschool (Valedictorian, Best in English)

Elementary - Sta. Monica Elem. School (Valedictorian, Best in Dancing)

Work Experience - 3 years, household service manager (katulong), Mr & Mrs. Montemayor.

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Menikanikow ni Monico eng mekina neng menikew ni Monica…

Peskow, peksew…

Booteke. Betooka…

Damn! I can’t deliver the Filipino tongue twisters!

- Si Inday, nagsasanay

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“The oil normalizing series specifically designed for my oily skin not only works physically on the skin surface, but penetrates deep into the skin layers to normalize oil secretion for a healthy and long-lasting oil free skin.”

- paliwanag ni Inday habang nagpapahid ng chin-chan-su

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Sa resto:

WAITER: Ano po order nila, maam?

AMO: Yung fried chicken meal na lang. Ikaw Inday, ano sayo?

INDAY: I would like to partake of a dish of sauteed pork and chicken, boiled in thick essence of soy and cane extracts, with copious amounts of garlic, onion and laurel, sprinkled generously with fine spices and served with a generous helping of root crop and a helping of rice.

AMO: Iho, pa-order daw ng adobo with rice.

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JEEPNEY DRIVER: Hoy! Bakit sais lang ang binayad mo?! Syete na ang pamasahe ngayon!

INDAY: I am currently enrolled in a 2-year vocational course in an academic institution. Therefore, I am a student and, by this fact, I am entitled to have the inalienable right to avail of a certain discount on my jeepney fare. This is why I provided a payment less than what you expected because that is according to the law, as stated in the fare matrix.

JEEPNEY DRIVER: ahh…

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…Its absurd!! It was never a fact that he will inflict a fight. I can only imagine how you handle schizophrenic kids on this educational institution. Revise your policies because they s*ck!

- si Inday kasama si Junior sa principal’s office (pasosyal ng pasosyal si Inday)

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hahaha eto panalo!

“Don’t limit my capacity to the four corners of this luxurious abode. Expose me to the real challenges of the outside world. I want to grow as an individual with dynamic experiences.”

- Inday, nagrereklamo kasi ayaw siya isama ng amo sa outing sa Enchanted Kingdom.

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Drunken shrimp and blue lobster meat with caviar served with milagrosa rice (red variety) and apricot sauce.

Vegetables in balsamic vinegar splashed with extra virgin olive oil.

Lychee and peach salad with sour cream and cream chees topped with lemon zests

- baon ni Junjun sa school na inihanda ni Inday.

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Love - a widely misunderstood although highly desirable malfunction of the heart that weakens the brain, causes the eyes to sparkle, cheeks to glow, blood pressure to rise and lips to pucker!

- Inday, gumagawa ng blog niya sa Friendster.

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(Dahil Inglisera na talaga si Inday, nakahanap ng katapat)

Kausap si Lornang labandera…

INDAY: Hey! Our majesty said wash that white clothe because that is the only white clothe of her, understood?

LORNA: Clothe! Only one? Duh! Would you mind to fill up those empty spaces of your brain, Idiot! I don’t know why people like you still exists, you’re just a scrap of humanity! Now, get lost!

INDAY: (luhaang umalis) “Ambot sa imo!”

(Hehe, yan ang yabang kasi ni Inday!)

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“For it wasn’t into my ear you whispered, but into my heart. It wasn’t my lips you kissed, but my soul. May these words hold true for our romance…”

- Love letter ni Dodong kay Inday. (Kala mo si Inday lang humihirit!) HAHAHA!!!

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There are tulips in the street, there are tulips in the park, but nothing compares to our two lips meeting in the dark.

- pamatay lines ni Dodong kay Inday.

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I don't know how all this began. I work with passion, care, and integrity. I may not be a perfect domestic employee but I do try to give my employers the best mundane and extraordinary services I possibly could.
Si Inday (nasaktan sa kumakalat na txt msgs)

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Amo: Inday ano gamit mo sa katawan ang kinis mo kasi eh? ..Siguro gumagamit ka ng papaya. O baka naman kalamansi?
Inday: No! ONLY BELO TOUCHES MY SKIN. WHO TOUCHES YOURS?

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You had the audacity to expose my bottomless wit and vocabulary to public scorn and scrutiny without having sought my approval? The nerve of these low lives never cease to amaze me!
-- reklamo ni inday sa walang katapusang inday series

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I'm not extremely good looking but I have a sense of humor. I'm not breathtakingly intelligent but I'm relatively witty. I'm not insanely rich but I'm fairly kind. I'm just a simple guy with a crazy elusive ambition of meeting your acquaintance. So, hi.
--DODONG, hardinerong nakikipag txtm8 kay INDAY.

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500 = globe plan subscription
1800 = glutathione tablets
600 = olay total effects
1500 = crocs flip flops
2000 = for mama
binabudget ni inday ang sweldo nya.. =p

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1. FENDI handbag
2. Balenciaga sandals
3. Manolo Blanich high heels
4. CHANEL fur coat
5. IPOD VIDEO 80 gig
6. Motorola RAZR dolce&gabbana edition
7. SONY BRAVIA flatscreen plasma tv
8. AQUAMARINE diamond wristwatch
9. LOuis Vuitton travel bag
10. 0 BAGI system skin care line
11. SHISEIDO cosmetics
12. 1 week off vacation spree at the BAHAMAS
-wish list in INDAY for Chrismas (nakadikit sa ref ng amo nya)

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"Potatoes when consumed in its raw state, are rapidly converted to glucose that raises insulin level because of its simple sugar.. when cooked in high temperature like french fires, they produce large amount of free radicals in the body causing aging clotting, inflammation, cancer, weight gain... 1 french fry is worse than one cigarette.."

-explain ni inday kung bakit hindi sya nakapagluto ng french fries sa amo nya.. nutritionist din pala...

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Dear Mom,

Had i not been able to smell the salt, i must have collapsed moments ago. Junior has become a little monster to me. Remember the head accident he had? As if it wasn't enough, he was summoned by the principal of hil shabilly runned academe. Oh, such an erudite bunch of baboons! I never though being a governess can be such strenuous employ!

Your daughter,Inday

Dear Inday,



Walanghiya ka! Magpadala ka ng pera! Nasa ospital ang nanay mo, dumugo ang ilong pagkabasa ng pesteng sulat mo!

--TATAY

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I believe that my trained skills and expertise in management with the use of standard tools, and my discipline and experience will contribute significantly to the value of the work that you want, my creativity, productivity and work-efficiency and the high quality of outcomes I can offer will boost the work progress.

- sagot ni Inday sa interview ng bago niyang amo!

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Amo: Inday, bakit nagkalat ang basura sa likod ng bahay?!

Inday: A change in the weather patterns might have occurred wrecking havoc to the surroundings. The way the debris are scattered indicates that the gust of wind was going northeast causing damage to the path it was heading for.

Amo: (nosebleed)

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Amo: Inday bumili ka nga ng mga isda, ay oo nga pala, inglesera ka na ngayon, would you please buy many fishes for this week's meals?

Inday: Judging by your statement, I believe you meant a variety of fish. The term fishes though rarely used, connotes a plethora of different kinds of the said gilled aquatic creatures. But the most pressing question before I go to the wet market would be: what type of fish? Fillet or not? Frozen or fresh? (pauses) Ahh…given the meager budget afforded by this household's quasi-peasant class taste, I assume I shall source the staple "galewng-gong". Yes?

Amo: Eh kung mag-empake ka na kaya?!

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"Ipomea aquatica has become the constant ingredient to this Filipino delicacy which is very helpful in the digestion during the peristaltic process of the food we intake. Due to the continuous rain and floods, the harvest of the said vegetable has lessen the production in the market"

- sagot ni inday samin kung bakit walang KangKong sa nilutong sinigang


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The consistency was fine. But you see, it seems that the increased amount of sodium chloride affected the taste drastically and those actions are irreversible. I do apologize.

-nag-eexplain si inday kung bakit maalat ang ulam.

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"Nurture others with positive truthful words, not words that hurt. It doesn't cost anything to do so. But mean what you say, and say what you mean. Do it everyday. This is one of the most obvious qualities of the most beloved people. If you cannot be generous financially, at least be generous with your words."

-sagot ni inday sa amo nya na di xa pinautang at minura-mura pa!

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I am solitary. I find it hard to succumb into slumber. Though the downpour of rain should've made it easy. This exuberent emotional glue i have for you,cannot be
simply washed away. The multiplicity of what i feel for you is inevitable. This isn't platonic. It's real, true romance

- INDAY, nag eemote sa may bintana, habang iniisip si dodong,ang bf nia..

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" I stay awake in the coldness of the darkened sky contemplating why, for some reasons, has my emptinessmade itself manifests, extending to that niche where i wasgiven life and growth, that because of austerity i was made seperated from...."

-INDAY habang ndi makatulog dahil na-ho-homesick . =D

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Heavy fire exerted by the stimulus affected the best conductor of heat which is the steel,causing the Oriza Sativa to change it's state of color,smell as well as the taste."

-sagot ni inday ng tanungin siya ng amo kung bakit nasunog ang sinaing.

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Listening to the nonsense talk about someone's life is a pathetic way of entertainment..it doesn't contribute to the good of society..i hate character assassinators!..

- reklamo ni inday nang natsismis siya ng kapitbahay.

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You'll never know wat u have til it's gone... And once u loose it, u can never get it back....

-si Inday na isnatchan sa quiapo!!!

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Ich bin jetzt berühmt geworden dürch diesen Pexer.Mach weiter so,das gefällt mir!!!

(naging sikat ako ngayon gawa ng pexer,pagpatuloy ninyo gusto ko yan)

Si Inday marunong din pala maggerman!!

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I believe that my trained skills and expertise in management with the use of standard tools, and my discipline and experience will contribute significantly to the value of the work that you want, my creativity, productivity and work-efficiency and the high quality of outcomes I can offer will boost the work progress.

- sagot ni Inday sa interview ng bago niyang amo!

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Compromising safety with useless aesthetics, the not-so-well engineered architectural design of our kitchen lavatory affected the boy's cranium with a slight boil at the left temple near the auditory organ.

- sagot ni Inday nang tanungin ng amo kung bakit may bukol si Junior.

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The consistency was fine. But you see, it seems that the increased amount of sodium chloride (NaCl) affected the taste drastically and those actions are irreversible. I do apologize.

- nag-explain si Inday kung bakit maalat ang ulam.

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Donya: Bakit tuwing paguwi ko, nadadatnan kitang nanunuod ng tv?!

Inday: Because I don't want you to see me doing absolutely nothing.

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"It's absurd! It was never a fact that he will inflict a fight. I can only imagine how you handle schizophrenic kids on this educational institution. Revise your policies because they suck!"

- Inday, kasama si Junior sa principal's office.

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Stop your raucous behavior. It is bound to result in property damages and if that happens there will be corresponding punishment to be inflicted upon you!

- si Inday, pinagbabawalan ang mga bata na maglikot.

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Sometimes, people choose to leave not because of selfish reasons but because they just know that things will get worse if they'll stay. Leaving can be a tough act, and it's harder when people can't understand you for doing so.

- sagot ni Inday kung bakit umalis si Angel Locsin sa GMA 7.

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"To forrestall further hopes of acquaintance, my unfathomable statement to the denial of your request. Petition denied."

- reply ni Inday nang i-text ni dodong kung pwede sya maging txtmate.

never again

every time i remember what i did last night, i get goosebumps and feel nauseous
i want to throw up
it has been more than 24 hours since i did it and i can still feel its movement from my fingertips
bleeech
how it struggled and looked as i shoved the gavage down his throat
i can't think of it
i can't think straight
i have not overcome my ultimate fear,
but i can't afford to lose the battle with pharmacology now that the end is near
it was a "do or die" moment
but never again
never again will that happen

you'd feel the same way too...

i don't have to explain why this person is irritating.... all you need to do is click on the link and read for yourselves

http://www.tingog.com/social-concerns/malu-fernandez-people-asia-article-controversy-manila-standard-columnist.html

oh and just so you know... TAPOS NA PHARMACOLOGY PRELIMS NAMIN...i'm free... haha.. and now i have to deal with my anaphylactic shock and the excruciating pain my very stressful night/dawn/morning/afternoon of august 28/29 has brought me... amen.

not what i had planned for my friday night

after a gruelling 3 hour lecture by doc quilala, i was so ready to... eat... not go home but eat... that day, i have been taking half bites of my food and giving the rest to tumalad (and my packed lunch to lynyrd)... so at the end of that day, i was really really hungry... but then we had to wait for photocopies of the lab powerpoint... so we stayed for about forty minutes... finally, we got our copies, boarded the train and rushed off to santolan to reach....WHAT!!! the line for the fx was so long it reached halfway of the overpass not to mention there were hundreds of people already in the middle of the street waiting for any vehicle that would allow them to transport themselves to any place but that station..

tumalad and i walked south bound to catch any empty vehicle...but with no luck we walked our way back (northbound) and decided to walk until....SANTA LUCIA.. for those living near our vicinity will know that sta lucia is like miles away from santolan station... we reached there after i-don't-know-how-long, crap talking, me hysterically laughing over no apparent reason and tumalad pointing at every direction...nalipasan na kami ng gutom...

and as if not satisfied with the walk we had, we walked through the mall out to brick road and to the waiting shed where we waited for 30 minutes for an empty vehicle once again... at last meron na... we boarded it but it was up to gate 5 lang daw... so we unloaded the jeep at gate 5 walked the sidewalk only to realize that the jeep was going to vista verde... grabe, just our luck talaga... and at last i arrived home to a shouting parent...

and that was what i had not planned for my friday night...

oLd kL back

After reading the chapter on riddle’s secrets, it got me thinking…

The old kL is back… I’m starting to do my schoolwork on my own again… ok maybe not on my own, I did have help but lately I just straight up refuse to do my schoolwork at home making me feel strained every day for the past 2 and a half months in school.

But with that kind of kL back, some things came back too… some attitudes rather…

I stand by my firm belief that what I have decided is what I am going by… no matter how wrong you think it can be, I believe that it is what is right because you don’t always get the chance to see the other side.

Black or white.

If you think I chose the black side, I chose the side I want to be on.

I have learned not to care. I have always known of how not to care and when I suddenly did, it turned out a big fiasco and now I bringing myself back to not caring.

I am an independent girl who will one day grow. I have accepted that I have not grown up to be the mature being I want myself to be. And forcing myself to be grown up, just ate me up. I am back to being on my own and deciding on my own which brings us back to my standing by my decision.

It’s probably too early for a birthday realization.

uniquely filipino

UNIQUELY FILIPINO
The following is from a British journalist stationed in the Philippines. His
observations are so hilarious!!!! This was written in 1999.

Matter of Taste
by Matthew Sutherland

I have now been in this country for over six years, and consider myself in most
respects well assimilated. However, there is one key step on the road to full
assimilation, which I have yet to take, and that's to eat BALUT. The day any of
you sees me eating balut, please call immigration and ask them to issue me a
Filipino passport. Because at that point there will be no turning back. BALUT,
for those still blissfully ignorant non-Pinoys out there, is a fertilized duck
egg.

It is commonly sold with salt in a piece of newspaper, much like English fish
and chips, by street vendors usually after dark, presumably so you can't see how
gross it is. It's meant to be an aphrodisiac, although I can't imagine anything
more likely to dispel sexual desire than crunching on a partially formed baby
duck swimming in noxious fluid. The embryo in the egg comes in varying stages of
development, but basically it is not considered macho to eat one without fully
discernable feathers, beak, and claws. Some say these crunchy bits are the best.
Others prefer just to drink the so-called 'soup', the vile, pungent liquid that
surrounds the aforementioned feathery fetus...excuse me; I have to go and throw
up now. I'll be back in a minute.

Food dominates the life of the Filipino. People here just love to eat. They eat
at least eight times a day. These eight official meals are called, in
order: breakfast, snacks, lunch, merienda, pica-pica, pulutan, dinner and
no-one-saw-me-take-that-cookie-from-the-fridge-so-it-doesn't-count. The short
gaps in between these mealtimes are spent eating Sky Flakes from the open packet
that sits on every desktop. You're never far from food in the Philippines . If
you doubt this, next time you're driving home from work, try this game. See how
long you can drive without seeing food and I don't mean a distant restaurant, or
a picture of food. I mean a man on the sidewalk frying fish balls, or a man
walking through the traffic selling nuts or candy. I bet it's less than one
minute.

Here are some other things I've noticed about food in the Philippines . Firstly,
a meal is not a meal without rice - even breakfast. In the UK , I could go a
whole year without eating rice. Second, it's impossible to drink without eating.
A bottle of San Miguel just isn't the same without gambas or beef tapa. Third,
no one ventures more than two paces from their house without baon and a
container of something cold to drink. You might as well ask a Filipino to leave
home without his pants on. And lastly, where I come from, you eat with a knife
and fork. Here, you eat with a spoon and fork. You try eating rice swimming in
fish sauce with a knife.

One really nice thing about Filipino food culture is that people always ask you
to SHARE their food. In my office, if you catch anyone attacking their baon,
they will always go, "Sir! KAIN TAYO!" ("Let's eat!"). This confused me, until I
realized that they didn't actually expect me to sit down and start munching on
their boneless bangus. In fact, the polite response is something like, "No
thanks, I just ate."

But the principle is sound - if you have food on your plate, you are expected to
share it, however hungry you are, with those who may be even hungrier. I think
that's great. In fact, this is frequently even taken one step further. Many
Filipinos use "Have you eaten yet?" ("KUMAIN KA NA?") as a general greeting,
irrespective of time of day or location.

Some foreigners think Filipino food is fairly dull compared to other Asian
cuisines. Actually lots of it is very good: Spicy dishes like Bicol Express
(strange, a dish named after a train); anything cooked with coconut milk;
anything KINILAW; and anything ADOBO. And it's hard to beat the sheer wanton,
cholesterolic frenzy of a good old-fashioned LECHON de leche feast. Dig a pit,
light a fire, add 50 pounds of animal fat on a stick, and cook until crisp. Mmm,
mmm... you can actually feel your arteries constricting with each successive
mouthful.

I also share one key Pinoy trait ---a sweet tooth. I am thus the only foreigner
I know who does not complain about sweet bread, sweet burgers, sweet spaghetti,
sweet banana ketchup, and so on. I am a man who likes to put jam on his pizza.
Try it!

It's the weird food you want to avoid. In addition to duck fetus in the
half-shell, items to avoid in the Philippines include pig's blood soup
(DINUGUAN); bull's testicle soup, the strangely-named "SOUP NUMBER FIVE" (I
dread to think what numbers one through four are); and the ubiquitous, stinky
shrimp paste, BAGOONG, and it's equally stinky sister, PATIS. Filipinos are so
addicted to these latter items that they will even risk arrest or deportation
trying to smuggle them into countries like Australia and the USA , which wisely
ban the importation of items you can smell from more than 100 paces.

Then there's the small matter of the blue ice cream. I have never been able to
get my brain around eating blue food; the ubiquitous UBE leaves me cold.

And lastly on the subject of weird food, beware: that KALDERETANG AMBING
(goat) could well be KALDERETANG ASO (dog)...

The Filipino, of course, has a well-developed sense of food. Here's a typical
Pinoy food joke: "I'm on a seafood diet. "What's a seafood diet?" "When I see
food, I eat it!"

Filipinos also eat strange bits of animals --- the feet, the head, the guts,
etc., usually barbecued on a stick. These have been given witty names, like
"ADIDAS" (chicken's feet); "KURBATA" (either just chicken's neck, or "neck and
thigh" as in "neck-tie"); "WALKMAN" (pigs ears); "PAL" (chicken wings); "HELMET"
(chicken head); "IUD" (chicken intestines), and BETAMAX" (video-cassette-like
blocks of animal blood). Yum, yum. Bon appetit.

"A good name is rather to be chosen than great riches" -- (Proverbs 22:1)

WHEN I arrived in the Philippines from the UK six years ago, one of the first
cultural differences to strike me was names. The subject has provided a
continuing source of amazement and amusement ever since.

The first unusual thing, from an English perspective, is that everyone here has
a nickname. In the staid and boring United Kingdom , we have nicknames in
kindergarten, but when we move into adulthood we tend, I am glad to say, to lose
them.

The second thing that struck me is that Philippine names for both girls and boys
tend to be what we in the UK would regard as overbearingly cutesy for anyone
over about five. Fifty-five-year-olds colleague put it. Where I come from, a boy
with a nickname like Boy Blue or Honey Boy would be beaten to death at school by
pre-adolescent bullies, and never make it to adulthood. So, probably, would
girls with names like Babes, Lovely, Precious, Peachy or Apples. Yuk, ech ech.

Here, however, no one bats an eyelid. Then I noticed how many people have what I
have come to call "door-bell names". These are nicknames that sound like -well,
doorbells. There are millions of them. Bing, Bong, Ding, and Dong are some of
the more common. They can be, and frequently are, used in even more
door-bell-like combinations such as Bing-Bong, Ding-Dong, Ting-Ting, and so on.
Even one of our senators has a son named Ping. None of these doorbell names
exist where I come from, and hence sound unusually amusing to my untutored
foreign ear.

Someone once told me that one of the Bings, when asked why he was called Bing,
replied, "because my brother is called Bong". Faultless logic. Dong, of course,
is a particularly funny one for me, as where I come from "dong" is a slang word
for well; perhaps "talong" is the best Tagalog equivalent.

Repeating names was another novelty to me, having never before encountered
people with names like Len-Len, Let-Let, Mai-Mai, Ting-Ting or Ning-Ning. The
secretary I inherited on my arrival had an unusual one: Leck-Leck. Such names
are then frequently further refined by using the "squared" symbol, as in Len2 or
Mai2. This had me very confused for a while.

Then there is the trend for parents to stick to a theme when naming their
children. This can be as simple as making them all begin with the same letter,
as in Jun, Jimmy, Janice, and Joy.

More imaginative parents shoot for more sophisticated forms of assonance or
rhyme, as in Biboy, Boboy, Buboy, Baboy (notice the names get worse the more
kids there are-best to be born early or you could end up being a Baboy).

Even better, parents can create whole families of, say, desserts (Apple Pie,
Cherry Pie, Honey Pie) or flowers (Rose, Daffodil, Tulip). The main advantage of
such combinations is that they look great painted across your trunk if you're a
cab driver. That's another thing I'd never seen before coming to Manila -- taxis
with the driver's kids' names on the trunk.

Another whole eye-opening field for the foreign visitor is the phenomenon of the
"composite" name. This includes names like Jejomar (for Jesus, (Joseph and
Mary), and the remarkable Luzviminda (for Luzon, Visayas and Mindanao, believe
it or not). That's a bit like me being called something Like "Engscowani" (for
England, Scotland, Wales and Northern Ireland).

Between you and me, I'm glad I'm not.

And how could I forget to mention the fabulous concept of the randomly inserted
letter 'h'. Quite what this device is supposed to achieve, I have not yet
figured out, but I think it is designed to give a touch of class to an otherwise
only averagely weird name. It results in creations like Jhun, Lhenn, Ghemma,
Bhong, and Jhimmy. Or how about Jhun-Jhun (Jhun2)?

How boring to come from a country like the UK full of people with names like
John Smith. How wonderful to come from a country where imagination and exoticism
rule the world of names.

Even the towns here have weird names; my favorite is the unbelievably named town
of Sexmoan (ironically close to Olongapo and Angeles). Where else in the world
could that really be true? Where else in the world could the head of the Church
really be called Cardinal Sin(Rest In Peace)? Where else but the Philippines!

Note: Philippines has a senator named Joker, and it is his legal name.

shoot me right back to high school

rise and shine! wake up wake up it's a beautiful morning

for someone who hardly slept

torture

that would say a lot

torture

make me scream and shout

torture

make me cry, please, make me cry

stop picking on me!

torture

26 hours of slob-ology

notice the previous entry... it's unfinished... well there is a perfectly good reason for that...

so this entry is for finishing what i started yesterday:

"today... is sleeping beauty (according to triccia) day... my mom woke me up at quarter to 6 for first saturday mass and i begged her that she leave me alone, bargaining to" say mass in the evening... she left me alone, then started waking my sister up... good luck with that... so i went back to sleep waking up at 7:30am to switch rooms because the sun was totally shining in my room... going to my mom's room, my sister turned the computer on and started singing... after lying down for awhile on my mom's bed, i sluggishly walking around our house tried to eat a decent breakfast... after that, i decided to watch a little tv, but of course wasn't really interested with what was on, so the unending flipping of channels was my game... after 5 minutes, it became old... so i dropped the remote, switched rooms and caught some Zzzzz's... until noon... someone woke me up to eat... i ate for about 10 minutes, turned on the tv and then slept again!!!
before i fell into deep slumber, i conditioned myself to wake up at 4pm for a tv show marathon... but that didn't happen... i woke up at 5pm, switched rooms, slept again until 6pm when my mom woke me up to turn on the messenger... took a bath, then lay down to watch a little tv, ate dinner,

wrote the unfinished previous entry, told triccia that i would be right back, but ended up sleeping and waking up at 1am...started texting kimo, gracia, and miguel... then after 30 minutes started texting lynyrd... after an hour and a half of texting, i felt sleepy and of course, you know what happened...

slob-ology

today... is sleeping beauty (according to triccia) day... my mom woke me up at quarter to 6 for first saturday mass and i begged her that she leave me alone, bargaining to

my world today

more like:

what happened to LL?

i used to like her... with her parent trap, mean girls, and freaky friday... which are teeny bopper movies which you don't usually catch me watching... but i used to like her... until...

until--- what the--- happened to her??? hayayayay....

pop culture talaga...

of vice and men

"I think we all learned a valuable lesson about faith. You give it to the people you love. But the people who really deserve it are the ones who come through, even when you don't love them enough."

oscar the cat

this cat's is the smartest cat ever... he can actually predict death...

Can This Cat Predict Death?

Last Update: Jul 27, 2007 7:12 AM

Posted By: Adrienne Phillips

PROVIDENCE, Rhode Island (AP) -- Oscar the cat seems to have an uncanny knack for predicting when nursing home patients are going to die, by curling up next to them during their final hours.

Oscar the cat doesn't like to be put out in the hall when a patient is dying.

His accuracy, observed in 25 cases, has led the staff to call family members once he has chosen someone. It usually means the patient has less than four hours to live.

"He doesn't make too many mistakes. He seems to understand when patients are about to die," Dr. David Dosa said in an interview. He describes the phenomenon in a poignant essay in Thursday's issue of the New England Journal of Medicine.

"Many family members take some solace from it. They appreciate the companionship that the cat provides for their dying loved one," said Dosa, a geriatrician and assistant professor of medicine at Brown University.

The 2-year-old feline was adopted as a kitten and grew up in a third-floor dementia unit at the Steere House Nursing and Rehabilitation Center. The facility treats people with Alzheimer's, Parkinson's disease and other illnesses.

After about six months, the staff noticed Oscar would make his own rounds, just like the doctors and nurses. He'd sniff and observe patients, then sit beside people who would wind up dying in a few hours.

Dosa said Oscar seems to take his work seriously and is generally aloof. "This is not a cat that's friendly to people," he said.

Oscar is better at predicting death than the people who work there, said Dr. Joan Teno of Brown University, who treats patients at the nursing home and is an expert on care for the terminally ill

She was convinced of Oscar's talent when he made his 13th correct call. While observing one patient, Teno said she noticed the woman wasn't eating, was breathing with difficulty and that her legs had a bluish tinge, signs that often mean death is near.

Oscar wouldn't stay inside the room, though, so Teno thought his streak was broken. Instead, it turned out the doctor's prediction was roughly 10 hours too early. Sure enough, during the patient's final two hours, nurses told Teno that Oscar joined the woman at her bedside.

Doctors say most of the people who get a visit from the sweet-faced, gray-and-white cat are so ill they probably don't know he's there, so patients aren't aware he's a harbinger of death. Most families are grateful for the advance warning, although one wanted Oscar out of the room while a family member died. When Oscar is put outside, he paces and meows his displeasure.

No one's certain if Oscar's behavior is scientifically significant or points to a cause. Teno wonders if the cat notices telltale scents or reads something into the behavior of the nurses who raised him.

Nicholas Dodman, who directs an animal behavioral clinic at the Tufts University Cummings School of Veterinary Medicine and has read Dosa's article, said the only way to know is to carefully document how Oscar divides his time between the living and dying.

If Oscar really is a furry grim reaper, it's also possible his behavior could be driven by self-centered pleasures like a heated blanket placed on a dying person, Dodman said.

Nursing home staffers aren't concerned with explaining Oscar, so long as he gives families a better chance at saying goodbye to the dying.

Oscar recently received a wall plaque publicly commending his "compassionate hospice care."

cleaning up

when a person is emotionally exhausted, she throws things around to take the pressure away... when a person is not used to being emotionally exhausted, then the more she swishes her stuff away... and that's what i like to call the "depressed mode"... the signs and symptoms including being messy despite the general knowledge that you are actually neat with your belongings... slacking off when the general knowledge about you is that you are really enthusiastic with going to school... there are more symptoms i can mention but...





i have to clean up my room...

a slow blogging day

Instructions: Just change the answers and tag somebody else as per the rules below. Pretty easy, right?

A - Age: 18 turning 19... yey!

B - Band Listening To Right Now: jackie wilson

C - Career: c- comment. as in no comment

D - Drink or Smoke: smoke what?

E - Easiest Friends To Talk To: my myself and i... but am learning to open up to chasty and my sister

F - Funniest Moment: i am serious.period.

G - Gummy Bears or Gummy Worms: bears.... worms are sour

H - Have a Girlfriend: i am a girl... why would i have a girlfriend

I - In love: with what? i am on a depressed-mode...so back off

J - Junk Food You Like: don't eat junk food... and yes it is probably the reason why i'm thin...

K - Kids: ilan na kids ko? e kung sabihin ko 10...me magagawa ba kayo?

L - Longest Ride Ever: jowell's right... the plane ride to the states... enough said...seriously

N - Names For Your Future Kids: Clandestine Sophia Ordona and Chloe Skye Ordona... CS... for CS Lewis

O - One Wish You Have Now: to end the agony of going to school

P - Phobias: rats, mice, water, air, crowds, small spaces, heights... and...and..

Q - Favorite Quote: quote and quote

R - Reasons To Smile: right now, nothing... really... nothing really? nope... really nothing..

S - Sleeping Hours: ay pwede ba ako matulog?

T - Time You Woke Up: di nga ako natulog...bakit ako ggising

U - Unknown Fact About You:i am clairvoyant

V - Vegetable You Hate: okra and bittergourd

W - Worst Thing About You: ask my thesismates

X - X-rays You’ve Had: every inch of my body...

Y - Yummy Foods: foods that are yummy

Z - Zodiac Sign: leo...roar...

*this was published out of... depression... so merci! and... i would probably post the real deal next time when i am in the mood...

M. ft.

Rx #1: Mix to make... a miserable life... mix your major internship in your university's hospital with your monthly exams and come up with a homogenous miserable life... "they're just making your life miserable" is my mom's favorite quote when things get out of hand and never did i think that one day, that same phrase would be applicable to me too... try being a senior college student where you think that you're too lazy to study but in reality, you do need the energy because extremely whacked grades.. if that's not enough pressure, trying waking up extremely early for your duty, dispense and compound the pharmacist's orders, run from your duty 5 minutes before your exam starts, and rush back after the exam... oh well.. at least i got 60 hours of major internship out of my way now... only 200++ hours to go...

Rx#2: Mix to make... a completely interesting twist... mix fastfood food, heart to heart talks and moments of filling laughter with new, long-last, or renewed friends, family, roommates and dormates and come up with a total wicked twist in your life... in a span of a week, i never realized how different my life is now compared to when we were first years... never realized how ambiguous someone's change could be...

Rx#3: Mix to make... a totally stressed out kL... mix studying for monthlys, studying for pharmacology, looking for score sheets and wifi signals, doing a pharmacology report with faking the typing of our thesis and come up with an OC kL who would buy domex and air fresheners to scrub immaculately clean room 215 or a crap-talking kL who would sing "Sometimes" by Britney Spears on the drive home or a "depressed-regimen"-ed kL, who would eat twice as much, slack twice as much and fumble and mumble twice as much...

M. ft. - Misce fiat - Mix to make

the inevitable

" what is inevitable with our lives?", i remember my english high school teacher shouting at us one hot wednesday afternoon... he was talking about a poem written in the renaisance period...

"DEATH!" he demanded... death is inevitable... and since then, those words never left my mind...

death is inevitable... one day, we will all die...

rare is the chance when one dies a peaceful death... and that rare chance was given to my uncle last night... tito alex died last night... it's as simple as that...

tito alex, like his death, is a rare man... even in extreme pain, he had an unbelievably long patience...you would never hear him complain of pain or unsatisfaction... you would just see him nod, smile or gesture you to have some drinks... his unselfish being is admirable... his only reason of not wanting to die, is because of his wife... he was worried of what would happen to his wife when he leaves... even hours after chemotherapy, if he had to rush his wife to the hospital he would...no matter weak he was, he would serve and care for my tita...

so pray for him... because he was a good man... a good man of God...

to end this post, let's all together pray:

Eternal rest grant unto tito alex, O Lord. and let perpetual light shine upon him.. may he REST IN PEACE... Amen.

a happy post! (v3431 tu)

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YEY ME!!!

breathe

why do i feel sooo stressed lately... parang di ako nauubusan ng pagsstressan... araw araw nalang ako kelangan me mareklamo... araw araw nalang ako me cinoconfide kay chas about my family, ex-friends and stuff... araw araw nalang ako nauubusan ng ATP's para lang mag-worry sa lahat ng bagay... araw araw nalang...

araw araw nalang... nababadtrip na ako sa pagiging negative ko... pero parang ngayon, kelangan may maconfront na ako para mawala na sama ng loob ko... lahat ng prinoproblema ko... lahat ng iniisip ko... lahat ng kaguluhan sa buhay ko...

sabi ni kheila kanina, bakit daw ako mukhang ngarag... e hello... nagayos na ako kanina at nahalata pa rin nila??? sabi niya, i was not myself... di ko daw aura kanina ang masaya... as in pag pasok ko, blank ang face ko... i was like, really? am i that transparent? is it that easy to tell what i'm thinking or feeling? e bakit may nagiisip pa rin ng masama tungkol sa akin... parang pagkatapos kong maging ok na sa isang bagay, someone just shoots me back to problem-ville... it's irritating... it's tiring... i don't want to explain and i don't need to explain... but you just seem to make things harder that the only easy thing is to actually explain...

sabi ni gracia kanina nung nangangarag na ako, breathe.... because sometimes, i forget to breathe... nagpapanic ako sa lahat ng bagay, i just forget that it is an essential to my living...

so kL, breathe in...






and hope you can breathe out again....

wishing it to be truly asia

i cant call it homesick because it is not my current residency neither have i been a full blooded malaysian..so i am going to call it nostalgia

last saturday, on our drive around bataan, there was this place we passed by that looked exactly like taipeng and i couldn't help but shout "shocks parang malaysia"... someone commented "antagal tagal na nun,di mo pa rin makalimutan" then another commented that "pagpasensyahan mo na ang pilipinas"...

first of all, oo, di ko siya makalimutan...because its my safe place...because whenever i feel blue or stressed i just think of my happy place--and that would be malaysia... i can't forget how convenient and easy everything is..i can't forget how i look forward to going to school and leaving early but coming back even before Barney or the Smurfs is finished...i can't forget how i just go downstairs and i am instantly in a mall...i can't forget how i can sit in the floor for hours in bookstores and start reading their books without being reprimanded...i miss sitting in libraries browsing through magazines.. i miss being one ride away everything is..may it be an amusement park or a province... i miss curry puffs and roti chanais,ipoh chicken and chinese fried rice,noodles at noodlehouse andl hokienmees.. i miss satays and braised duck, clay pots and bbqed cucumbers, chicken wings... i miss pasar malams and stupid english shows...i miss shallow malay sitcoms and funny chinese dramas... i miss culture...i miss singing Negara Ku every mornins...i miss swimming every afternoon... i miss driving through the city but still seeing gardens and trees.. i miss being relaxed and yet still on time... . i miss it... i miss HOME...

second, i don't spite the philippines... it's just after 10 years of living here, i just can't seem to adapt to what is being offered to me... i can't seem to understand why are we so theoretical... why do we have to talk about what's right when we are no good at doing it... after 10 years, i can't seem to accept something that has opened its arms to me...i have made lots of good memories... but somehow, it never fulfilled me like malaysia did... the only plus side is my friends that are truly genuine... but not even that can stop me from thinking that i want to bring them with me... probably the reason why even if i've lived here for 10 years,i have to get out to actually relieve myself from stress... i love the philippines...and i'm not supposed to say these... i love the philippines, but i don't know if i can/should stay...i love the philippines... i really do...


someone tell me where home is...