meeoooowww. ROAR.

sunday. night shift.

monday 6am. home. 12:30pm. back to the hospital. DOH meeting. 4pm. home. 10pm. night shift.

nice. real nice.

so the DOH representative told me bakit naman ang bata mong nagwwork? ayan di ka tuloy pwedeng magduty magisa.

so feeling frustrated, i said. "i'm as competent and as effective as my co-workers. age should not be a reason to hold me back from what i am capable of doing. so what kung 20 lang ako. the philippine law sucks."

the DOH was shocked. and i was immediately fired for disrespecting a government official.

yeah, i wish.

true naman yung sinasabi niya eh. na dapat i should just stay home for a while. take my time. or at least have a plan.

tama rin ang sinabi niya, in her words "saling pusa" lang naman talaga ako dun. nahihilo ako twing tapos na ang duty ko. at ngayonn ko lang nabasa ung contract ko... oh did i mention, ngayon lang ako pumirma ng contract ko. i think it states that i should stay for a minimum of 2 years before i can resign after my probationary period which will end on february next year.

or at least that's what i think it said. i was so out of my mind, that i just stared and the labels while waiting for my contract.

plan. i need one. someone give me one. because right now my only plans are: have my hair curled permanently, watch twilight, and check if i could sell my ipaq and buy a new phone.

it must be the uniform

what is it with me and random people who love to spill their deepest darkest secrets (more like problems)?

so after a definitely bangag night with the interns (who mind you are older than me), i decided to treat myself with my favorite breakfast meal in mcdo. so i went down a stop earlier from the hospital and started to walk to mcdo marcos highway. i did have a rough night, with the almost progressing anaphylactic reaction and my sleepless 30 hours was slowly passing by... imagine how much i wanted to wrap myself with my brown blanky and just lay my head on a pillow.

so sausage egg mcmuffin there i went. (crap talk). i sat in one of those comfy nooks with dim lights and started to munch on my crispy hash brown. started toying with my psp then finally got tired. my thoughts strayed to how much i wanted to explain to everyone who would stop and stare and find me companyless that i wasn't the only one sitting alone. then it started to trail to how alone was fine blah blah the whole enchalada.

then all of a sudden an old man came to my sight distracting me. my ears were plugged with usher's what's your name when i realized he was talking to me.

man: iha, uupo akong nakatalikod sa'yo ha..
me: cge po (all smiles and started biting again)

man's phone suddenly rang. and because my sense of hearing was blocked by my earphones, it sounded like kapangpangan. when i later realized he was talking in english. the conversation ended. and the old man turned to me

man: nurse ka iha?
me: ay hindi po. pharma po ako.
man: ahhh.maganda magnurse ngayon, mabilis makapunta sa states
me:haha. oo nga po eh.
man: yun ung tumawag kanina, nurse un! mataas sweldo nila dun. $48 dollars per hour. mga pharmacists maganda din magtrabaho dun, un nga lang mas madali makapunta dun kapag nurse ka.
me: oo nga po, mas madali lang talaga pag nurse
man:2 courses na ung anak ko na un eh. nung una computer, kaso masyadong maraming radiation, kaya pinagnursing ko nalang
me: ahhh

man's daughter came

man: (to daughter) lipat tayo.

they sat on the chairs next to me

daughter: kuha lang ako syrup
man: ung pamangkin ko, pharmacist sa ust naggraduate. kaso nakapagasawa ng koreano
me: (starting to get interested) ahhh talaga
man: oo, ayun nasa korea na siya
me: pharmacist po siya dun
man: oo dun siya nagppractice.
me:ahhh ok
man: yun ung anak ko rin yun. sa ibang nanay nga lang. oo sa ibang nanay
me: (not wanting to probe) ahh nurse din po siya?
man: hindi hrm siya.ayaw niya nurse.. oo iba nanay nun. naloko ako nun (--tells story--)
me: uhhhmm talaga?
man: oo police kasi ako dati.
me: sa marikina?
man: hindi sa krame ako dati (--tells story--)
me: (almost tempted to change the subject by asking whether he knew castillejos) ahh, kaya no pong solusyunan ang problema niyo tay. pde niyo pong (--give advice--)
man: salamat

daughter comes back

man: kain!
me: cge po, tapos na ako eh.
man: anak oh, pharmacist siya

gulp down my juice

me: cge tay, alis na ako
man: oo nga malayo pa ata ibbyahe mo. bye
me: smiles

plug earphones
Now I'm speechless, over the edge I'm just breathless, I never thought That I'd catch this love bug again Hopeless, head over heels in the Moment, I never thought that I'd Get hit by this love bug again

I enjoy listening to people's problems. I do. I really do. not that i love to see them in agony because i don't. i just feel a personal satisfaction whenever someone spills. It makes me think I can help someone in need in such a short time. makes no sense huh