AAAARRGGGG. DAMN IT. a late post

august 30,2008

i woke up today unaware of where i was. due to habit, i checked my phone lazily.. saw that waiyan texted me, reminding me that i was replacing maam dianne because she begged for a double off. so instead of going to work at 8am, my shift will start at 10am. shit. i checked the clock. it mocked me by saying it was exactly 6am.again. SHIT.

i tried to go back to sleep. unsuccessful, i wandered around our house. growing tired of the view, seeing that everyone even the help was still asleep, i suddenly realized i'm supposed to finish twilight. so i got the copy from my room, brought it to my mom's bed and started reading.

by 8am,i was starting to feel sleepy again.but this time, i had to get ready because before going to work, my mom and i had to pick up my altered scrub suit from the tailor. by 9am, i was following my mom around, asking her to move in a glacial pace because it was almost 9:30 and i still had to leave for work.

again, i miscalculated the time. it took less than 5mins to travel to the tailor, get my scrubs and change into one. but, I HATE BEING LATE. so i decided to be early, since it was a saturday and staying in the pharmacy wouldn't be such a pain because there aren't a lot of patients during the weekends because most of the doctors were going to Subic.

i couldn't be more wrong in my life. i arrived at the pharmacy by quarter to 10. and started moving. akala ko tinamaan lang ako ng ka-oc-han ko. but NO. from the time i set foot on the pharmacy, hindi lang siya "bakit parang di ako nauubusan ng gagawin." more like "bakit parang dumadami ung dapat kong gawin"

for the first 3 hours, i enjoyed the thrill of having to deliver the meds in a continous pace.. by the time my superior left, 2 nalang kami... and i checked the pile of charge slips..grabe!

by 3pm, my back was killing me because kahong kahon at mga bote ng dextrose ang pinagbubuhat ko for almost 5 hours.then we started the unit dose and by 4pm, i literally wanted to give up and cry... throw a tantrum- but i couldn't. i'm not a kid anymore, we have to act maturely..by 5pm kala ko makakapagcharge na ako, pero baba pa din ng baba ng charge slips to dispense. the sir marcial (the hr head) passed by the pharmacy at gusto kong sabihin "i quit" and leave... kung di lang maiiwan si maam aimee magisa dun. pero kasi even if kept on asking, medyo alam ko naman that somehow, i'm helping... by 5:45, i was able to start charging the mountainSSSS of charge slips in front of us. di pa ako nangalahati sa isang floor, it was already 6pm.. so i bade goodbye to maam aimee and wished her luck. staring at those charge slips, i felt sorry for the next few shifts.. mukhang di mauubos sa 3 shifts ang charging ng mga un...

august 31,2008

sabi na, may mali ako kahapon eh =(

shortlived book-re-worming

i started reading twilight but it's taking me longer than usual because of my allergies and because of eureka...

i'm actually suprised that i'm enjoying a sci-fi series because i usually brand them as unbelievable or it's not going to happen.. but eureka, it's actually fun to probe around what could happen in the future... oh an i love carter's crib..

i'm also actually surprised that i'm enjoying twilight... oh wait, enjoyed twilight...for the first 2 chapters...

big mistake kasi..i thought sean biggerstaff was the one playing edward cullen... un pala it's robert pattinson (played cedric diggory).. to think i was starting to fall in love with edward cullen imagining biggerstaff do the character's actions in the book... oh well, wrong harry potter character... hahaha... love love love sean biggerstaff, sorry

but still, i'll probably finish the book especially since when i arrive home after work, all i ever do is lie down...or maybe that's all i ever want to do..i'm tired.. oo na, for the people who want to say "i told you so, you should have rested for another month" oo na ok...but there's no backing out to this... i'm no quitter

anyhoooo, it's been so long and i'm lost without you so what am i gonna do said i've been needing you and wanting you-- bwahahaha, again with that song!..but i do miss reading..but right now it's taking a whole lot of my time. the last time i read was my birthday last year..the last book of harry potter.. it took me 5 hours (9pm-2am) to finish that book. i remember feeling distinctly depressed on my birthday because the installment was through...oh well.. let's see where this new set goes..to end, i'm posting a sean biggerstaff picture..hehehe
xoxo,
kLmNo

ps: i remember posting this picture on our corkboard after watching chamber of secrets

sloppy blog

stuff that i forgot to say yesterday, kasi i was so sleepy..

hmmm

it's the 4th day in a row where i find myself waking up in the thoughts of what's the generic name of this, that, which row is this that, which shelf is this and that.. PARANG BOARD EXAM lang eh no...minus the pressure of passing plus the pressure of turning myself from a liabilty to an asset.. hayyy, mentally disturbed lang

yesterday, the radio in the pharmacy was on... i was groggy, sleepy and cranky, then out of nowhere (or out of the run of commercials) the dj said, "paano kung mahuli ka ng boss mo na natutulog sa oras ng trabaho mo?" wahhh..GUILTY.

but for real, it was a saturday morning where i should be flipping through the channels, and end up watching reruns or cartoons... and at that moment, i wanted to lie down sa mga suero...dextrose..mga kahong parang mga trabahador naming binuhat... sakit sa likod..hehehe

and then

ta-daaa...not only did he go down to give me charge slips but he gave me 5 trays of returns..hahaha..tinoxic niya ako...but at least, conversation wise, it was a "different" day... from that time on, pag bumababa siya with his logbook, tawa lang kami ng tawa..ang kulit kasi, mantoxic ba daw...

hmmm...then, someone texted, and i got even more excited...but how does excitement go to just plain "you make me want to barf" in just an hour...kaya talaga, you should keep me in the black...in mystery... ayun lang..that's the explanation of the last paragraph of the previous blog...

ps: the charge slip nurse and the texting guy are different

so much to say...

i have too many thoughts to know where to start

san nga ba

hmmm..

ok here are three out of this world thoughts

first, is there such thing as "im not in my element"? because if there is, i haven't been in my element lately...draggggg...

second, my 2nd day to go overtime without overtime pay... hay unit dose, ibaba kasi ng mas maaga...=P

third, ayoko na..i'm not talking about work but here's a clue: i have my limits and i'm not appreciating what you're doing anymore... a normal person would probably not only appreciate it but jump right into it...well, i don't need to be taken care of, because i know how to take care of myself...kaya stop na please... i'm totally grossed out with the words already...sorry, ABNORMAL ako eh

charge slip dilemma

so i didn't go...

i think you think i'm stupid for passing the opportunity of training in st lukes. sabi nga, baka forever ko isipin ang what if di ako pumunta sa interview...but then again, it goes two ways... baka mag-what if i did go for the interview and trained. hahaha...labo

oh well, my parents were the ones who already decided na wag nalang..

but there was a mix-up with the charge slips..hay toxic kami tuloy...TOXIC...literally...

i'm tired!

help! anong gagawin ko?

waaahhh..

i'm confused..

and in dire need of clarification (?)

hired na ako sa marikina valley medical center... tas i'm working there as a trainee or in other words, nagttrain na ako for 2 weeks..in another 2 weeks, pro-b na ako...

tas kasi naman itong st luke's bonifacio global city, tumawag kanina... 2:30 daw ang interview ko tom...

here's the deal:

Pros	Cons
JCI accredited ang hospital na to…magandang career move (included here is mas magandang hospital)	Lose my job in mvmc
Rest until October 2009	No possible way to commute (but I might get the car by then)
A more intensive and extensive training	Say bye bye to the chance of medicine next school year

ano baaa...

when they called, Anna said "did you receive our text message".. i was like, uhmm no?

sign ba un ni God... pero sabi nga nothing and everything is a sign..pag gusto mo kasing gawing sign ang isang bagay, ganun mo siya iisipin...

what to do
what to do

ideas anyone?

ideas before midnight would be really helpful

prebirthday eat-out/ celebration much?

so since i have work on the 19th (coming home from work takes about an hour) and by 7pm, i'll be leaving again for the party with the relatives, parang nonsense na maginvite sa 19 ng mga tao kung after an hour and a half kelangan mo na silang paalisin or iwanan.. that's why my mom decided to invite some people for dinner (5pm) at don henrico's brick road

2 realizations: 1. ganun na pala kabusy ang lahat ng tao no? 2. i never knew someone could feel happy and sad at the same time

out of the 15 persons who i texted, half of them replied, and out of the 8 who replied, 2 lang ang pumunta..bummer, way to make myself feel special diba? bakit kasi 14 pa ung tinext ko?haha... can't say i'm actually happy about that..but ayun... short notice much.. hmm, mom ko kasi nung 5am lang niya sinabi sa akin..at least 3 kami diba?

siguro over the years, i've been wishing for a birthday full of RnR and when i finally invited people,that's when God gave me a birthday of RnR...or better yet, my birthday grinch philosophy finally paid off.

ano ba yan nagdrama pa ako, sanay naman ako maging loner..hahaha...at di pala talaga sa akin bagay ang magdrama..anyhoo, that's how i really felt

but then pagdating sa don hen at nakita ko na si kataroo (na galing oang manaoag, pangasinan) at si boyet (na galing sa lessons niya), i felt better.. and it was the tropang lrt all over again.. and that made me real HAPPY (parang grade 1 ang nagsusulat no?)..them coming was more than enough reason to celebrate by pigging out..

pizza, pasta and buffalo wings...di namin nakain ung cake dahil sobrang busog na kami...so to the 2 most wonderful people in the entire universe(2+1 [naintindihan ko namang kelangan pa magbarko ung isa bago makarating sa manila, pero me cake parin siyang dala..hehe]), thankkk youuuuuuu, love you guys mwah

ps: cathe and kim, asan na ang movie date natin?!hahahaha

biglaan

hahaha..

since medyo marami nang nakakaalam na may "work" na ako, i can blog about it na...

so, i'm pretty happy about my work dahil sobrang no sweat ang pagkapasok ko... i passed the resume online, got a call, interview, exam, interview, then interview ulit... one day observe observe, the next day orientation, at ngayon ako nalang magisang training dun... masaya naman siya... for once di ako tingin ng tingin sa orasan kasi time flies sa hospital na un...

pero like i told everyone who found out i have work, temporary lang to, until i'm sure sure sure SURE and very sure about my future with medicine would be... i'm estimating 6 months that'll be around february and around the time that they would lift my probationary status...hahaa..di ko man lang matitikman ang maging regular...

the thing is,i'm enjoying it...but not to the point that i wouldn't wish to continue studying... so un, med or not, i'll leave that hospital on february... look for better fish (if med is not feasible)

hmmm, ano pa ba?

i'm going to be 20 soon, yuck and wow... bakit di na ako teens but i still look like i'm in high school?hahahaha... what happened to my 19th year? bakit ang bilis? anyhoooo, at least this year di ako magssulk at magppuyat kakabasa ng harry potter dahil may work akong iisipin...

so yun, di ko narin alam nangyayari kay christiu...hahaha..kainis naman ohhh..di na ako nakanood ng game..

di ko din pala alam sweldo ko..oh diba...for a learning experience's sake lang ata talaga to..

oh and ohhhhh..hahahaha... there's something that makes me keep on waking up early and commuting to mvmc everyday.. can anyone guess? hayyyy, where's your charge slip?hahaha... well that reason and the part where i can wear a scrub suit all day feeling like i'm wearing my pj's while walking around the hospital..hahaha...

so here's to dispensing!

all Ggggggrown up

tinatamad ako magpost pero sige na nga...

since medyo may excitement na ang buhay ko eto na

the entry's title has a whole lot of meanings...

lets start with yesterday,

ikai and i were supposed to pass our resume sa heart center and national kidney institute... when i was aboard the train wearing my corporate attire, Grace texted me na di pde magpass ga't walang NBI clearance...

backtracking, the day before yesterday, pinagusapan namin ni caeg ung bday ni kat...the original plan was i would give her flowers...i had no money to buy load so what more can you expect from me buying flowers... so night came up the land of philippines, i decided pupuntahan ko na nga si kat kasi bday naman niya, ang lapit ko lang.. so i scheduled my resume passing sa heart center the next day so i would have a reason to go out and get extra money... mga 10pm, chasty texted me that they were going to visit kat...wow, dami naming nakaisip na puntahan siya.. and my my, talk about good timing..

so yun back to--- i decided not to go home, go straight to ust to just wander around... ended up meeting with the med guys who di naman ako kinausap dahil they had this test sa biochem.. and gracia, who will be having her defense of their first chapter later that day...

an hour later, ikai arrived ust... oo, kahit alam niyang wlaa kaming mapapala, we probably had the same idea na ayaw na muna namin sa bahay... so yun nagwendy's kami... and talked for about 3-4 hours..tagal diba?!hahaha.. then malapit na mag-3, lynyrd followed (cut his biochem lecture) and nakipagdaldalan ng unti... then it was time to go to the dela cruz's residence...

oh but i had extra money to buy a PETITE cake...sorry kat, yan ang tawag sa poor..hahahaha

lrt ride-anonas- p tuazon

p tuazon-- andun na sila gladys, jessa, triccia, chasty and celso.. turns out lahat din kami bum with a capital BBBBBB...hahaha... maaannn, and may i just be brave enough to mention, it's been awhile since i've been with their company and honestly i was fidgeting while i was still aboard the lrt...but as soon as i entered kat's house, the fidgeting stopped because i guess there was still a LOOOOT of catching up to do... and heck everything was normal and FUN just like it was 2007 again and that is probably a good thing...

by 5pm, i was declaring to leave...but as usual, kahit ako unang nagssabing uuwi, i was the last to leave... because i had to wait for boyet who was soooo late..kasi me SWELDO na siya..hahaha... oh and oh, nilibre niya ako ng taxi ride pauwi... ohhh sarap ng libre..hahaha... too bad he has to leave soon for mindanao...he won't probably even be here on my birthday... which is all good, kasi WALANG HANDA...ayan haaa...we have balikbayans so, the feasting will either be done in the province or with relatives..

oh and as usual, masarap na naman ang food kela kat... hahaha.... never changed..nung nagiintern palang kami sa qmmc, they always cooked us scrumptous meals..too bad i was still full with wendy's

so anyway, baeba was constantly texting me while i was at kat's house and we agreed that we would meet today sa quiapo church...first time ko pa naman magcommute all by myself sa quiapo..hahaha...so we filed our NBI clearance, and it was not at all disappointing...because unlike PRC, it was systematic... and in less than an hour, me certificate na ako..yey!!!

i just learned that PRC was supposed to move to a new building but they refused to because "masisira ung system nila"... baeba and i were like, what system?!

anyhooo...this day was really productive because besides filing for an nbi clearance, i got my barangay clearance and another cedula. to add more to the already productive day, i finally enrolled for driving lessons..yes, i'm 19 and still don't know how to drive..i'm not completely knowledge-less, but still need expert coaching to get a license..hehe

so that's 2 g-turned-c girls i've been with in this week... and still looking forward to seeing lea soon but God knows where she is..hahaha...because i certainly don't... pero buti pa si lea, she remembered my birthday, and what's cooler is she even reminded me!hahaha... but yeah, boyet totally forget thattt..hahaha..kaya kami tawa ng tawa kahapon

ayunnn...tomorrow, Gracia's going to accompany me to kidney institute after i have my diploma photocopied...

i have this goal na dapat before aug 15, i already have a job... then toni Grande texted me if i was interested in tutoring her students.. and I AM...really, my dad just thinks its a bad idea kasi it's not pharma related..devil's advocate talaga parents ko no?Hahaha.. howellll... still priority ko pa din ang pharmacist..i think..hahhaha

so to end this entry, i got pictures from kat's multiply...
katrina ruth bernas dela cruz,
happy birthday kataroo...loveyahhh

watch out

psych and monk are back...yey!!! actually the new season has been running for three weeks now. and may i say, rachel leigh cook guesting in the second episode of psych was really cool although panalo pa din si julia.

csi... new york... don flack...hay don flack..hahaha... too bad the danny-montana tandem is over (forgot what montana's name is).. but of course hanging parin ang season finale.what with the hostage taker being the "Real" suspect... i prefer new york right now because it has the fast-paced story among the other csi's.. like the major case will take 3-4 episodes to unveil unlike miami and vegas, the major case is the season-long case...bo-ring..next season will start on september 24, 2008

gossip girl...my sister hates it... hated it too at first then i liked it..but yeah, medyo ayoko na rin.. just like looking at their clothes...and i still like blair-chuck but that'll end soon too.. next season: september 1, 2008

grey's anatomy... although di ko nagustuhan ang cheesy na ginawa ni meredith grey sa season finale, the next season will be exciting...just to name some spoilers, izzie won't have a brain tumor but the alex-izzie hookup will be back with "interesting sparks".. there's a new guy (military doctor) and he'll be cristina's new thing.. callie and erica, can i say who the hell expected that?!?.. new season starts on: september 25, 2008.. for more info on the new season: grey's anatomy

criminal minds... yes, more of sherman mooreeee..hahaha.. mind twisting talaga tong series na to... it twisted my mind more when i was reviewing the board exam. new season starts on: september 24, 2008

dexter... just starting to watch this series, so far i'm just intrigued with rita-dexter-lila..hahaha.. psycho kasi si lila eh... but new season starts on: september 28, 2008

house..bahay..haha..corny..sakalin ang corny.. house ano bang season finale ng house? is it my imagination or did cutthroat bitch just die? new season starts on: september 16, 2008

bones..buto..haha... kill me! booth was shot...ekkkk wag naman sanang mamatay si booth diba?hahaha... new season starts on: september 3, 2008

meron pa ba?

this is how much of a bum i am