something in me...

something in me, in my mind tells me, i'm soooo tired... of what? im not sure... the exact reason of why i'm tiring myself out even more..

something in me tells me i can't take it anymore... i just want to give up... but it's embarassing... as i told my roommate, "feeling ko, isang araw bigla nalang ako iiyak" ... maybe then, i'll feel relieved...

the other part of my brain is telling me to stop stressing, but the more i tell that to myself, the more i feel stressed... gosh... the more i panic deep inside.. the harder it is to keep my cool... i resort to bugging my classmates... more like bullying (which i know doesn't affect them one bit)... but then lately, even that i've lost my will to do that... i'm just to tired...

i tried to watch a movie, take out all the stress in me... ended up destroying the movie for kath, coz i overanalyzed it, predicting the whole plot, giving it an alternative plot....

then, i wished i was like mater, the truck in Cars.... living freely...

but then i zapped back to reality, and started panicking...

someone save me!!!!

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those humdrum days...

Type your FIRST REACTION when you hear
these 35 words (don't spend time thinking - just
your gut reaction please):

1.Cigarette: my dad

2. Sex: practice safely

3. Relationships: are bound to be broken

4. Your Last Ex: may last last pang nalalaman..

5. Power rangers: morphine... mighty morphine power rangers... naka-morphine drip ba sila?

6. Marijuana: adik

7. Crack: pot

8. Food: yummm...

9. Love: only for those who believe in it

10. War: makes george bush's job interesting...

11. Car: jaguar..porsche.. at ung filipino dude na animator ng Disney movie---> Cars

12. Gas Prices: is the reason why i have to commute every week from the dorm..

13. Halloween: trick or treat!

14. Bon Jovi: it's my life! it's now or never...

15. Religion: God..

16. MySpace: i'm surprised i have one! i wasn't awarE! haha...

17.Worst fear: being blind... no not death... but being blind

18. Marriage: is the next ultimate sacrifice... next to the Holy Eucharist...hahaha

19. Fashion: models

20. Brunettes: sophie bush...

21: Redheads: may natural bang ganito?

22: Work: money

23: Past time: reading eBooks (a cheaper way of reading) and of course the boob tube (or the idiot box)

25: One night stands: urrrggg...

26: Pet Peeve: tao ba ito?

27. Pixie Stix: huh?

28. Vanilla Ice Cream: prefer chocolate

29: Porta Potties: for construction workers' comfort

30: High school: st scholastica's academy marikina

31: Pajamas: don't were them

32. Wood: kagat ka ng wood pag nanaginip ka ng natatanggal ngipin mo..

33. Surfers: cool.

34. Pictures: i take a lot of pictures...

35. First Love: uh... kanta to dibA?

my tummy...*bow --- and gloria macapagal arroyo (the non-political side of it)

my tummy has a mind of its own... now that it feels that i am going back to the dorm, it is starting to reject food... yummy food mind you... my mom says it psych i say it's my tummy's psych...because it has a mind of its own (for emphasis)... when i was in the states, it could fit in a big serving of pizza, churros and footlong for one meal (at costco..everyone was i think surprised i finished their leftovers too...)... i also remember when we went to magic mountain it was filled with a whole lot of food... i think it was burger with fries, pizza, funnel cake, and my sister's leftovers...hahaha... and buffet was never as good as it is there... as soon as i came back to the philippines, i dropped the cravings (not weight) for no apparent reason... on the contrary, i wanted to keep it up...

every summer, i gain weight and appetite... when it is a week before school starts, it unconciously affects my hunger pangs... it makes it less and i can survive with eating one meal...

in malaysia and singapore, i'm game in trying out all of their different dishes... in the philippines, i just can't bring myself to eat kakanins, bittergourds and the whole enchalada..

so basically i'm saying MY TUMMY HAS A MIND OF ITS OWN!!! AND ITS MIND, IT NEEDS TO GO TO THE MENTAL...

on the weirder note, we saw GMA awhile ago on our way home from the dorm (unpacking) and picking up my sister (boards...good luck)... at eto pa.. kinawayan niya kami, kasi kami lang ang sasakyan doon, e nakita ng mom ko, e tinuro pala ng mom ko sa amin, nakita ko kumaway siya...ang galing... at ang pag tatagalog ko na to ay "in memory" ng ating ika-108 na pagdiriwang ng ating kalayaan... kahit alam kong napaka-"lame" ng translasyon na ito... kaya... MABUHAY ang mga PILIPINO!!!.. at mamatay na ang mga nangungurakot... that goes to all politicians out there... and i don't think my sentences are logical...

so i thank you.. *BOW!

THE SWITCH

not a complete one... because i know i'm still bound to write in this blog... but, contrary to what i posted in my new blog, yep is that i do have a new blog



i will still continue posting here though... because mainly, that link up there, is for pictures, videos, marketing, reviews and events...

but my rants and raves will remain here... well, most of it...

my new baby!!

nope... it's not what you're thinking but its my rx 3517... haha...woohooo!!! kabirthday niya si bham... happy birthday bham!!



funny, coz i saw cambro strolling around cyberzone with her boyfriend... cool... nakita ko na rin si leopoldo (tama ba?) sa personal...haha... nakakatawa... parehas ata kaming nagulat... kaya di nakapagreact at nakapagusap ng maayos... at syempre nahiya naman ako dun sa guy, kasi mukhang atat nang bilhin ang kanyang RAM... haha...

before that, we went to makati, where i was amazed by the technology of the offices there... haha... di mo akalain... tas nakakatawa pa si manong guard...

but besides that, i learned something new about myself... i become more mature in buying stuff than i was 2 years ago... haha.... why? because two years ago, i felt so grumpy not getting what i wanted... basically, maybe because now, i don't really know what i want, and anything is just fine...haha... oh well.... but i'm really really glad...

let's wrap it up

in about 10 days, i'll be starting my first semester in my third year in college... it's not as exciting as the other "first days" i had basically because i know it'll be one hell of a sem...

but before i end it, i'm wrapping it up...

this summer...
i became a semi-private nurse, taking care of my newly-operated mom who was trying to recover...
a month later, i became a maid... i've washed dozens of dishes, hung loads of laundry, cooked a heap of processed foods, and tried to eat them too...

besides that, i had my summer job to attend to, scanning, sorting, editing pictures and finally producing a video clip for every category... and that would probably get me my first own ipaq... (fingers still crossed for that)

i have made my own saying.. "a dolcet a day keeps kL asleep"...

i have watched all recent episodes of oprah and came to a conclusion:
watching oprah in the morning is inspiring
watching oprah in the afternoon is boring and tiring
watching oprah in the weekends is just exasperating except the bill gates episode...

i have watched tons of makeover shows (make that human makeover or room makeover), kim possible episodes, totally spies, original disney movies.. i have solved many crimes... via csi, privilege and power, forensic files, and a lot more... i have tried to cry in so many "inspiring" movies... but my lacrimal glands are just totally busted... i have watched lots of educational shows via living asia,national geographic.. ihave learned that the 9-11 event was thought of and practiced here in the philippines... i have learned that the gospel of judas is crap...i have watched cooking shows, but never really "cooked"....

i have been invited to tons of swimming "events" but never really went... some i read of after the event because of the lack of energy to open my email..

i have been sick... most of the days... or at least feeling sick..

i have watched two unusually disappointing movies, mission impossible III and xmen III... review on http://krazyinnarnia.multiply.com

i have went to grocery for my family, bought them a lot of crappy food and of course finish them all...

i have bonded.. not only with my cats but with unexpected friends... i have built bridges despite my endless ignorance of my cellphone... i just hate staring at those keypads...

i have attended 3 formals: a wedding, a silver wedding anniversary, and a graduation

i have stayed up so late and woke up so early... but that isn't knew...

i have aspired to do new and brave things... like dig in my dorm stuff and actually fixing them... but those are just aspirations...

i have dreamt endlessly of my future... of my plans and... others... and still i have maxed out my batteries life using my mp3 player which plays first of summer, a wish is a dream, one wish, so sick, when you're mad, bad day, etc eternally..

i was almost blind...

i finished the entire 2 seasons of grey's anatomy and still think it should go my way to sell to an audience...

i have uploaded a tad bit of photos in my friendster account...

i have bummed around and just stared at nothingness... i still hope for sanity..

i have checked out a countless number of blogs whose owners seem to have a way more interesting life with me..

it's my first summer that i didn't swim, instead i wore tons of dresses to the formals...

i have attempted to make a multiply account... which is still currently undergoing construction...

i have remembered a whole lot birthdays..

i have tried to give out philosophical advice and in turn, i got loads of them from very wise people..

i have talked to a total stranger, who in turn told me that pharmacy was the choice of her eldest daughter... that got me thinking, people actually WANT to be pharmacist...

i have almost been to the bank where the employees were held hostages..

i have enrolled myself, got my mercury certificate (at last!) and realized that my schedule sucked...

i started listening to rt again then stopped again...

i have learned that aromatherapy isn't really for curing my insomnia

i have attempted to drink of sedative to just knock myself out...

i have spotted some cool, in the most unlikely place... and of course, know that i'll never see him again, although i did want to grab his ipod...

i have realized that my music iq, has not progressed one bit...

i have laughed, admired, slept (a whole lot)... and of course my favorite thing to do, i have hated and showed that hate through my sarcasm... and i thank you *bow

and as directors say at the end of every film they make, THAT'S A WRAP!