what happened to LL?

i used to like her... with her parent trap, mean girls, and freaky friday... which are teeny bopper movies which you don't usually catch me watching... but i used to like her... until...

until--- what the--- happened to her??? hayayayay....

pop culture talaga...

of vice and men

"I think we all learned a valuable lesson about faith. You give it to the people you love. But the people who really deserve it are the ones who come through, even when you don't love them enough."

oscar the cat

this cat's is the smartest cat ever... he can actually predict death...

Can This Cat Predict Death?

Last Update: Jul 27, 2007 7:12 AM

Posted By: Adrienne Phillips

PROVIDENCE, Rhode Island (AP) -- Oscar the cat seems to have an uncanny knack for predicting when nursing home patients are going to die, by curling up next to them during their final hours.

Oscar the cat doesn't like to be put out in the hall when a patient is dying.

His accuracy, observed in 25 cases, has led the staff to call family members once he has chosen someone. It usually means the patient has less than four hours to live.

"He doesn't make too many mistakes. He seems to understand when patients are about to die," Dr. David Dosa said in an interview. He describes the phenomenon in a poignant essay in Thursday's issue of the New England Journal of Medicine.

"Many family members take some solace from it. They appreciate the companionship that the cat provides for their dying loved one," said Dosa, a geriatrician and assistant professor of medicine at Brown University.

The 2-year-old feline was adopted as a kitten and grew up in a third-floor dementia unit at the Steere House Nursing and Rehabilitation Center. The facility treats people with Alzheimer's, Parkinson's disease and other illnesses.

After about six months, the staff noticed Oscar would make his own rounds, just like the doctors and nurses. He'd sniff and observe patients, then sit beside people who would wind up dying in a few hours.

Dosa said Oscar seems to take his work seriously and is generally aloof. "This is not a cat that's friendly to people," he said.

Oscar is better at predicting death than the people who work there, said Dr. Joan Teno of Brown University, who treats patients at the nursing home and is an expert on care for the terminally ill

She was convinced of Oscar's talent when he made his 13th correct call. While observing one patient, Teno said she noticed the woman wasn't eating, was breathing with difficulty and that her legs had a bluish tinge, signs that often mean death is near.

Oscar wouldn't stay inside the room, though, so Teno thought his streak was broken. Instead, it turned out the doctor's prediction was roughly 10 hours too early. Sure enough, during the patient's final two hours, nurses told Teno that Oscar joined the woman at her bedside.

Doctors say most of the people who get a visit from the sweet-faced, gray-and-white cat are so ill they probably don't know he's there, so patients aren't aware he's a harbinger of death. Most families are grateful for the advance warning, although one wanted Oscar out of the room while a family member died. When Oscar is put outside, he paces and meows his displeasure.

No one's certain if Oscar's behavior is scientifically significant or points to a cause. Teno wonders if the cat notices telltale scents or reads something into the behavior of the nurses who raised him.

Nicholas Dodman, who directs an animal behavioral clinic at the Tufts University Cummings School of Veterinary Medicine and has read Dosa's article, said the only way to know is to carefully document how Oscar divides his time between the living and dying.

If Oscar really is a furry grim reaper, it's also possible his behavior could be driven by self-centered pleasures like a heated blanket placed on a dying person, Dodman said.

Nursing home staffers aren't concerned with explaining Oscar, so long as he gives families a better chance at saying goodbye to the dying.

Oscar recently received a wall plaque publicly commending his "compassionate hospice care."

cleaning up

when a person is emotionally exhausted, she throws things around to take the pressure away... when a person is not used to being emotionally exhausted, then the more she swishes her stuff away... and that's what i like to call the "depressed mode"... the signs and symptoms including being messy despite the general knowledge that you are actually neat with your belongings... slacking off when the general knowledge about you is that you are really enthusiastic with going to school... there are more symptoms i can mention but...





i have to clean up my room...

a slow blogging day

Instructions: Just change the answers and tag somebody else as per the rules below. Pretty easy, right?

A - Age: 18 turning 19... yey!

B - Band Listening To Right Now: jackie wilson

C - Career: c- comment. as in no comment

D - Drink or Smoke: smoke what?

E - Easiest Friends To Talk To: my myself and i... but am learning to open up to chasty and my sister

F - Funniest Moment: i am serious.period.

G - Gummy Bears or Gummy Worms: bears.... worms are sour

H - Have a Girlfriend: i am a girl... why would i have a girlfriend

I - In love: with what? i am on a depressed-mode...so back off

J - Junk Food You Like: don't eat junk food... and yes it is probably the reason why i'm thin...

K - Kids: ilan na kids ko? e kung sabihin ko 10...me magagawa ba kayo?

L - Longest Ride Ever: jowell's right... the plane ride to the states... enough said...seriously

N - Names For Your Future Kids: Clandestine Sophia Ordona and Chloe Skye Ordona... CS... for CS Lewis

O - One Wish You Have Now: to end the agony of going to school

P - Phobias: rats, mice, water, air, crowds, small spaces, heights... and...and..

Q - Favorite Quote: quote and quote

R - Reasons To Smile: right now, nothing... really... nothing really? nope... really nothing..

S - Sleeping Hours: ay pwede ba ako matulog?

T - Time You Woke Up: di nga ako natulog...bakit ako ggising

U - Unknown Fact About You:i am clairvoyant

V - Vegetable You Hate: okra and bittergourd

W - Worst Thing About You: ask my thesismates

X - X-rays You’ve Had: every inch of my body...

Y - Yummy Foods: foods that are yummy

Z - Zodiac Sign: leo...roar...

*this was published out of... depression... so merci! and... i would probably post the real deal next time when i am in the mood...

M. ft.

Rx #1: Mix to make... a miserable life... mix your major internship in your university's hospital with your monthly exams and come up with a homogenous miserable life... "they're just making your life miserable" is my mom's favorite quote when things get out of hand and never did i think that one day, that same phrase would be applicable to me too... try being a senior college student where you think that you're too lazy to study but in reality, you do need the energy because extremely whacked grades.. if that's not enough pressure, trying waking up extremely early for your duty, dispense and compound the pharmacist's orders, run from your duty 5 minutes before your exam starts, and rush back after the exam... oh well.. at least i got 60 hours of major internship out of my way now... only 200++ hours to go...

Rx#2: Mix to make... a completely interesting twist... mix fastfood food, heart to heart talks and moments of filling laughter with new, long-last, or renewed friends, family, roommates and dormates and come up with a total wicked twist in your life... in a span of a week, i never realized how different my life is now compared to when we were first years... never realized how ambiguous someone's change could be...

Rx#3: Mix to make... a totally stressed out kL... mix studying for monthlys, studying for pharmacology, looking for score sheets and wifi signals, doing a pharmacology report with faking the typing of our thesis and come up with an OC kL who would buy domex and air fresheners to scrub immaculately clean room 215 or a crap-talking kL who would sing "Sometimes" by Britney Spears on the drive home or a "depressed-regimen"-ed kL, who would eat twice as much, slack twice as much and fumble and mumble twice as much...

M. ft. - Misce fiat - Mix to make

the inevitable

" what is inevitable with our lives?", i remember my english high school teacher shouting at us one hot wednesday afternoon... he was talking about a poem written in the renaisance period...

"DEATH!" he demanded... death is inevitable... and since then, those words never left my mind...

death is inevitable... one day, we will all die...

rare is the chance when one dies a peaceful death... and that rare chance was given to my uncle last night... tito alex died last night... it's as simple as that...

tito alex, like his death, is a rare man... even in extreme pain, he had an unbelievably long patience...you would never hear him complain of pain or unsatisfaction... you would just see him nod, smile or gesture you to have some drinks... his unselfish being is admirable... his only reason of not wanting to die, is because of his wife... he was worried of what would happen to his wife when he leaves... even hours after chemotherapy, if he had to rush his wife to the hospital he would...no matter weak he was, he would serve and care for my tita...

so pray for him... because he was a good man... a good man of God...

to end this post, let's all together pray:

Eternal rest grant unto tito alex, O Lord. and let perpetual light shine upon him.. may he REST IN PEACE... Amen.

a happy post! (v3431 tu)

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YEY ME!!!

breathe

why do i feel sooo stressed lately... parang di ako nauubusan ng pagsstressan... araw araw nalang ako kelangan me mareklamo... araw araw nalang ako me cinoconfide kay chas about my family, ex-friends and stuff... araw araw nalang ako nauubusan ng ATP's para lang mag-worry sa lahat ng bagay... araw araw nalang...

araw araw nalang... nababadtrip na ako sa pagiging negative ko... pero parang ngayon, kelangan may maconfront na ako para mawala na sama ng loob ko... lahat ng prinoproblema ko... lahat ng iniisip ko... lahat ng kaguluhan sa buhay ko...

sabi ni kheila kanina, bakit daw ako mukhang ngarag... e hello... nagayos na ako kanina at nahalata pa rin nila??? sabi niya, i was not myself... di ko daw aura kanina ang masaya... as in pag pasok ko, blank ang face ko... i was like, really? am i that transparent? is it that easy to tell what i'm thinking or feeling? e bakit may nagiisip pa rin ng masama tungkol sa akin... parang pagkatapos kong maging ok na sa isang bagay, someone just shoots me back to problem-ville... it's irritating... it's tiring... i don't want to explain and i don't need to explain... but you just seem to make things harder that the only easy thing is to actually explain...

sabi ni gracia kanina nung nangangarag na ako, breathe.... because sometimes, i forget to breathe... nagpapanic ako sa lahat ng bagay, i just forget that it is an essential to my living...

so kL, breathe in...






and hope you can breathe out again....

wishing it to be truly asia

i cant call it homesick because it is not my current residency neither have i been a full blooded malaysian..so i am going to call it nostalgia

last saturday, on our drive around bataan, there was this place we passed by that looked exactly like taipeng and i couldn't help but shout "shocks parang malaysia"... someone commented "antagal tagal na nun,di mo pa rin makalimutan" then another commented that "pagpasensyahan mo na ang pilipinas"...

first of all, oo, di ko siya makalimutan...because its my safe place...because whenever i feel blue or stressed i just think of my happy place--and that would be malaysia... i can't forget how convenient and easy everything is..i can't forget how i look forward to going to school and leaving early but coming back even before Barney or the Smurfs is finished...i can't forget how i just go downstairs and i am instantly in a mall...i can't forget how i can sit in the floor for hours in bookstores and start reading their books without being reprimanded...i miss sitting in libraries browsing through magazines.. i miss being one ride away everything is..may it be an amusement park or a province... i miss curry puffs and roti chanais,ipoh chicken and chinese fried rice,noodles at noodlehouse andl hokienmees.. i miss satays and braised duck, clay pots and bbqed cucumbers, chicken wings... i miss pasar malams and stupid english shows...i miss shallow malay sitcoms and funny chinese dramas... i miss culture...i miss singing Negara Ku every mornins...i miss swimming every afternoon... i miss driving through the city but still seeing gardens and trees.. i miss being relaxed and yet still on time... . i miss it... i miss HOME...

second, i don't spite the philippines... it's just after 10 years of living here, i just can't seem to adapt to what is being offered to me... i can't seem to understand why are we so theoretical... why do we have to talk about what's right when we are no good at doing it... after 10 years, i can't seem to accept something that has opened its arms to me...i have made lots of good memories... but somehow, it never fulfilled me like malaysia did... the only plus side is my friends that are truly genuine... but not even that can stop me from thinking that i want to bring them with me... probably the reason why even if i've lived here for 10 years,i have to get out to actually relieve myself from stress... i love the philippines...and i'm not supposed to say these... i love the philippines, but i don't know if i can/should stay...i love the philippines... i really do...


someone tell me where home is...

vernonia???

walang kamatayang thesis na naman...

hehehe...

july 6, 2007
it started... it started when i realized, everyone in our group (except dianne) was being treated as if we were grade schoolers by our parents... history: gracy wasn't supposed to come and sleep at our place... so the original plan was ms peled would be our only guest... until miguel and lynyrd decided to stay at our house, para siguro iwas hassle din... so we told jessa na siya na lang ang di magsstay sa amin... eventually she decided to stay too, leaving gracy to be the only one to be picked up... but by 1pm, gracy's freakishly protective parents finally gave in... yahhoooo.... so 7:30 na (thanks to doc quilala, napakalate na ng start namin), Dianne and i waited for gray at jollibee... di naman matagal pero 9pm na kami nakarating sa amin... then 10 mins later,lynyrd texted that he decided not to go... by this time i had a terrible headache due to excessive intraocular pressure due to excessive fear of swiss mice... by 11:30, jessa arrived with her whole family (literally, when matching nephews pa)... then by 12:15 am, miguel arrived with his parents... so, may mas ggrade school pa ba sa mga kagroup ko???

so there was laughter until i don't know when... note: the time we agreed on leaving was 5am



july 7, 2008
we were alive and kicking by... 10 am...hahaha... butttt... we woke up at 4 am... ok maybe i did... then gracy did then dianne, the oh-so-slow-bather finally finished dressing up... miguel and jessa, well wash and go lang sila... parang fast food... for the first few minutes of the trip, we were still energetic until we reached north edsa... lahat kami bangag na causing us to catch some zzz's at nlex... but for some reason when one wakes up, everyone wakes up.... by the time we were in san fernando, nagkukulitan na ulit kami... at ang kawawa ay si dianne... haha...

so we were spotting at vernonia's the entire way until we reached balanga, and managed to grab our first batch which amounted to two and a half sacks... then we travelled all the way to pillar--- to find like half a sack of vernonia... feeling desperate,we travelled back to san fernando were we kind of spotted on a bunch of vernonia's there... but when we reached balanga, we found a new batch again... turned out that it was the same location as the first batch, so we spent another hour and a half there being farmers... then we rested at a place dianne named "UST" -- under the sampaloc tree...

after fifteen minutes we lazily went back to work for another 5 minutes and decided to call it a day... actually wala pa nga atang 5 minutes un e, masabi lang na napuno namin ang last sack namin, kahit talahib, pinagbubunot na namin... actually nakastare nalang halos kami ni gracy, jessa, dianne watching miguel uproot vernonia with matching talahib... by 1 pm, we were travelling back to san fernando to look for somewhere to eat... hungry, we were repeating each others sentences... ok maybe not, miguel, jessa and i were repeating DIANNE's sentences... poor dianne, napipikon na...

we agreed the first fast food chain we see is the place to eat... and the first fast food chain was in.... nlex! ta-da.... hahaha... kaya mga 2:30 na kami nakakain... sweaty, tired and haggard-looking we ate in total silence (esp dianne)... after food balik na naman sa tawanan, asaran, hulugan ng food sa mouth at walang kamatayang paguulitan ng mga sinasabi ni dianne (wow, it rhymes)... then comes the last stretch, were dianne was supposed to get down at bocaue, pero ayaw siyang pababain ni kuya so she ended up at sm north...miguel up to muñoz i think and gracy up to q ave... then the car was in total silence...

and to end this, here's the top 5 list of who "tabas"-ed the most!
1. kuya kim
2. miguel
tie in 3 -- gracy, jessa and i
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sige na nga pati si dianne nasa 3 na din..hahaha *mean


acknowledgment: thanks to kuya tim and not kuya kim! for driving us...

PICTURES: vernonia multiply

modern day mary poppins

every now and then we get to have an intellectual dream... i just had mine like three minutes ago... in my dream, my dad's boss invented the anti-gravity... the dream was pretty accurate, well except for the part where my dad's boss was bald, my dad was a young pierce brosnan and well, i was a well-dressed mary poppins... the story got so twisted, my dad's boss bet my dad's life on it... well not only my dad's life but also his and my life for that matter... he let the anti-gravity go, making us weightless... so for the past 30 minutes, i have been soaring through indefinite space continuum... that's fancy talk for "i got high before i put my self to sleep.."